Anyone else ever gotten way too attached to Ardee and it ruined the books for a while? "[OFF TOPIC]"
Hey, so I’m in a weird spot and could use some advice from people who know the series.
I started The First Law a while ago and ended up getting a really strong crush on Ardee. Like, properly attached. I’m a pretty softhearted,depressed, lonely guy (22, never had a girlfriend, pretty isolated growing up) and I have this pattern where my heart latches onto fictional girls hard. It happened with Ardee and it got bad enough that I had to stop reading because every scene with her and Jezal was making me jealous and miserable.
I know she’s not written as some perfect love interest. I know their whole thing is messy and she’s kind of toxic/self-sabotaging. But my brain didn’t care. The more I read, the worse the attachment got, and now just thinking about picking the books back up makes me nervous it’ll all come flooding back.
I really want to finish the trilogy (Glokta is my favourite by a mile) but I need to kill this crush first so I can actually enjoy it again without the jealousy and the spiral.
Has anyone else dealt with getting too attached to a character like this? Any advice on how to detach and read them as just a character again? Or should I just leave the books alone for a long time?
Appreciate any thoughts. Feeling a bit stupid about the whole thing but figured this was the best place to ask.