I know strangulation is seen as deadly. it happened twice when I made him mad but I pushed him away when I didn’t want to hug him and he raged on accident. I just can’t help to wrap my mind if it was really abused? if there wasn’t a full red marks on my neck. is it abuse? was I in a domestic violence relationship for the longest?
Do you guys consider watching pornography cheating? I told my boyfriend I considered porn cheating. Here’s the thing we are doing long distance right now for a few months. I have strong boundaries on watching pornograph. It was the middle of the night where I got into one of those moods and watched porn. I felt guilty once I realized at the end. I realized it is double standards. I guess I just don’t know how to view watching pornography in a relationship. In my previous relationship I did have a porn addiction where I stopped having intercourse with him. Along with becoming a lustful person. I just don’t want to go down that hole again or want my partner either. I always feel if my partner would nor find me attractive if he watches pornography or it would lead to us cheating on each other. (btw I do find it cheating talking to cam girls/boys or like onlyfans. that’s a big no for me and I never did that) I just don’t know how to feel about it in this relationshi. or myself.