I’m tired of so many things. Missing my daughter, getting back into the routines of life, seeing blissful pregnant women everywhere, interacting with people that smile at me as if I’m not still living in hell, even explaining to my own husband what’s wrong all the time. I’m tired of all of this and more. I’m just tired. How are you all doing this
to all of the fathers who are grieving the loss of their precious children - whether it be out loud and freely, quietly and behind the scenes, or anywhere in between. I wish society did a better job of seeing you and taking care of you. I hope today has been what you have needed. Sending my love to all of you.
In case anyone wants to get anything off their chest...has there been a shockingly cruel thing your in-laws (or blood relatives) have said to you or your significant other? Because holy shitttttt, I am wondering if the level of insanity my husband and I are experiencing is normal.
On top of all we have been through, it just feels so disgusting to have this added layer of suffering.
ETA: Wow everyone, thank you for the responses. My hope is that this is validating for everyone who needs it, but I'm also so sorry that you all have experienced such hurt by loved ones.
TW: loss
We lost our daughter 4 months ago. I was 4 cm dilated with bulging membranes at our anatomy scan and deemed to not be safe to attempt a cerclage. I've been through all the what-ifs, like maybe we should have demanded they try anyways. Idk. We just trusted our doctors, and she was so stable while I was hospitalized for 4 weeks until she wasn't anymore, and I delivered by emergency c-section. It was a classical because of her size. I'm still in the pit of grief and devastation. I miss her more than I could ever express in words. I want nothing more than to be a mother to a living child, but I am completely terrified of the future.
Has anyone been through something similar? How has life been since then? How are you doing now? Have you gone on to have a living child?
Hi everyone. I am 4 months out from losing our daughter after an emergency c-section at 24+3. I feel like I'm regressing a lot in my mental and emotional healing. For those of you that are any further on the timeline from your loss, have you experienced this? Not necessarily at 4 months exactly, but at any point did you have a big regression? I've lost my appetite again and am extremely tired. I can tell that my husband is worried about me, and I don't even know what I can say to reassure him. I have an appointment with my OB coming up in a week, and I plan to discuss with her. She prescribed me a ton of meds when I initially left the hospital though (that I never took) without even really talking to me, so I don't have high hopes for that conversation. I'm also in therapy. I just feel very lonely and disappointed in myself, like I'm not honoring my baby girl. I'm terrified of ever trying again because of my classical c-section scar. I just want my baby back.
I want to THROW something at the mothers that are walking their babies or holding their babies in public that are completely glued to their phones. WHAT I WOULDN'T GIVE for just 5 more minutes to stare at my beautiful daughter (who had already passed by the time I was even able to meet her). My God. Like are you joking??? If I ever have the chance to bring home a living child, I will never take my eyes off of them.