Meeting my boyfriends kid (help)
So for context, me [19F] and my boyfriend [27M] have been official for 2 months, and we talked for 2 months prior to making it official. I knew he had a kid prior to talking to him (a 2 year old). We decided it was time for me to meet his son and his family in one day.
I got off work and drove to see him. I got there at about 7pm when I went inside and said hi to him and his son. We had small interactions here and there but nothing major.
About 30 minutes after I got there my boyfriend put him down for bed and me and him eventually went to bed ourselves.
However the next day was a different story.
I woke up at about 7:30 and my boyfriend and his son were in the living room. I hid behind the door for a moment before finally sitting down on the far side of a couch. From then on, I literally just sat there. I had no idea what to do or how to interact with his son. I know he's only 2 but I have little to no experience with kids at all so l was clueless. My chest felt fuzzy. All I could do is watch my boyfriend interact with his kid. I don't know why this happened and i couldn't move, I wanted to interact with him. I just... couldn't? My boyfriend said I looked miserable the entire time but it's not how I felt inside.
My boytriend puts him down tor a nap around 11am and we both talk about it. It's very obvious he was disappointed in me and upset for the little interaction I had with his kid. He told me it's best if I just drive home and not meet his family in chances of ruining their fun as well.
I feel terrible. I cried the whole way home. I'm not sure if maybe it was just because it was too early? Any thoughts/ insight would help.