u/AdMedical2104

TW: mentions of yelling

Hi, I was just chilling and wondering why is it so so hard for me to clean ? I mean there's stuff I'm okay with doing, like Washing the dishes, mopping, and that's pretty much it lol, because of ADHD I struggle a lot with starting tasks and staying on them, or forming habits

Tho I kept remembering I didn't have that problem much when I was younger?? And I also was able to be motivated by money or candy or fear yk? Now, nothing at all, hate cleaning so much ESPECIALLY folding clothes, I get light headed when I think about folding clothes, one time I was grounded until I do it because it was my chore but I just couldn't, I stayed three days and I couldn't even bring myself to start on it and of course I couldn't do anything else so I got to thinking,

I remembered on time I got fixated on cleaning the room we keep our clothes in, I was cleaning for HOURS and it was perfect, I showed mom and was so proud and she jokingly said 'you should do the living room next' and I jokingly replied 'haha I'm not doing any chores for a year!' and it was funny until dad heard and started yelling how 'if you live here you have to do chores! And one room isn't enough cleaning no matter how long it took you! You will clean the living room right now!!' and he kept screaming and I cried and didn't clean (mom delt with him) but I struggled so so much more with cleaning ever since i swear, I feel so bad because I haven't deep-cleaned anything since (years ago),

Can trauma really affect your ADHD symptoms that much?? How can I get over it??

So I'm anemic, I've taken the pills and finished them all over a few months and I felt fine for a while, until my period comes and I lose allot of blood so I feel bad again, I don't want to take pills forever but I also hate hate hate meat (not vegan just don't like the taste) (nothing against vegans tho),

Also for the past two periods Its been going for 13-16 days, I've been bleeding since like the 4th of may I think (three Fridays ago, 2.5ish weeks) I'm going to the hospital dw but I can't go until next Saturday, and I've been feeling really lightheaded since I'm losing so much blood, is there something I can eat to gain a little blood back that isn't meat?

I've tried everything, fidgeting, body doubling, having someone watch over me, routines, long breaks that never feel long enough, I just don't know what to do, I'm not self diagnosed I have a diagnosis but I'm unmedicated because my parents don't like meds (I tried them once and they just made me depressed), I've tried the promoro Technic or whatever it's called, I just feel so unable to study I don't know what to do, even pressure doesn't work anymore, I feel like a brick

This is very long but I wanted to tell you everyone's perspective,

I was diagnosed last Monday and I've been taking 18mg concerta for the past 5 days, all I have been getting until now is side effects and feeling insanely depressed, (nothing is better)

I'm not very close with my parents or friends, I don't tell anyone my problems or my feelings, I'm just not used to it, most of the time I don't know what I'm feeling, I really don't , and ever since I started taking meds mom has been asking me about my feelings a lot, which just feels weird to me so I just answer quickly, this makes sense because she's really paranoid about medicine in general esp mental health meds,(this will make sense in a min)

I've been feeling depressed for years now, and sometimes when I get too depressed while studying or even playing, I get up and lay on the bed for a while to recharge (no one notices), so two days ago I was feeling like that so I went to bed and lied down, and mom noticed this time, and kept asking me what's wrong, and begged me to talk to her,( I don't have any mental energy when I feel like this) so I didn't answer and just told her to leave me alone, but she kept checking on me every 5 mins which ruined my dissociation (which is what I do to recharge) she even lied next to me and cried telling me to please talk to her (I just couldn't) I felt so bad that mom was crying for me,

I have a life altering exam in the third of August (very important), that's why I even got the courage to tell mom to take me to the doctor so I can get diagnosed, it took me weeks of replaying every possible way this could go and decided that if the meds work it would all be worth it, that's all I wanted anyway,so I held my breath and told her, thankfully she did take me to the doctor, I told mom before that I wanted an ipad if I got the grade I wanted in the exam, and she accepted,

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so i got diagnosed with ADHD a few days ago and ive been prescribed 2 meds, one for ADHD and one the doctor said for sleep?, i havent taken it yet for personal reasons, i like to be extra catious about the meds i take, i dont take any meds without reading the paper that comes with any meds, and seeing how actual real humans reacted to it, so i went to read the paper and it was written in it its an anti-psychosis medicine ?? im not in psychosis i can tell you that, ive sat with the doctor for like 20 mins max (other than the ADHD assesment), and im pretty sure i didnt act abnormal, not that i normally do, she also didnt tell me that it was an anti psychosis nor did she tell my mom who was there with me, i was wondering if this med maybe acually has something to do with ADHD ?

its called rideon (brand name) active ingredient risperidone

location: New Jersey , just to clarify, im not going through this, i was thinking about older siblings becoming guardianships for their younger siblings in general, and if parents appoint adult sibling in their will as guardians for their younger sibling, then gave up custody of said younger sibling, does the adult sibling get custody immediatly or do they still have to file a case in court for,

i read a few articles and found out that in New Jersey older siblings usually dont get custody at all, exept in specfic cases, and i was wondering if this is one of them, because parents arent dead or in jail or anything

just to clarify, im not going through this, i was thinking about older siblings becoming guardianships for their younger siblings in general, and if parents appoint adult sibling in their will as guardians for their younger sibling, then gave up custody of said younger sibling, does the adult sibling get custody immediatly or do they still have to file a case in court for,

i read a few articles and found out that in New Jersey older siblings usually dont get custody at all, exept in specfic cases, and i was wondering if this is one of them, because parents arent dead or in jail or anything

Theres a large amount of countries that pretend adhd doesnt exist once you turn 18-21, or you have to wait months (or years) to get a diagnoses, and some countries (including my own) just bans most ADHD meds, or is just insanly expensive

so i was wondering is there a country that has none of the above? like you dont have to wait, the prices for meds are reasonable, and the meds are acually allowed, and adults are allowed to have ADHD (does such a country even exist?)

all my life i always burn out very easily, and not because im working hard or anything, i do way less than the bare min and i still burn out every time and it makes it harder to focus on studying which makes it take more mental energy which makes me burn out faster, it doesnt help that most adhd meds are illegal in my country, exept for strattera, the only way i can focus without meds is if someone with authority watches over me like my mom, body doubling does not work, having background noise and fidgeting distracts me or just doesnt work, i feel like im gonna die with how much i hate my brain gosh i wish i was just normal, if someone feels the same, what do you do to simulate authority, my parents arent free to watch over me like a child.

https://reddit.com/link/1szqzfz/video/xvjqn60hpayg1/player

it's been like that since yesterday idk what to do I can move the mouse but I can't really open anything,

there was some very important files on this that I can't lose please help