u/Additional_Risk_445

I’m 30F and considering abortion. My partner is 30M. I found out I was pregnant at 3 weeks and 5 days. I’m currently 5 weeks and 3 days. My symptoms haven’t been bad so far, but emotionally I feel like I’m screaming inside.

I already have misoprostol on hand. I used some last year to end another pregnancy. I tried so hard not to end up in this position again. Now that I’m here, I choke up just thinking about taking the pills.
Our combined income is pretty decent, but I still don’t feel financially ready for another child. We each have our own home. He wants us to start moving like a family. Right now, he spends time at my home about twice a week. I’ve enjoyed living on my own for over a decade. Sharing a home and changing that independence is another step I don’t feel ready for yet.

My estimated due date is May 31. I graduate May 8. My partner’s birthday is May 12. My birthday is June 4. My only child turns 13 on July 20. There are so many milestones coming up while I’m trying to figure out what I want.

My son’s father and I coparent amazingly. There are no issues there. My fear is about starting over. We were both very young when we had our son. I still carry the weight of the sacrifices I had to make. My child is almost a teenager now. The thought of going back to the newborn stage and putting parts of my life on hold again feels overwhelming.

I trust my partner. I believe this experience would be different from my first. That doesn’t take away my fear. I want this child, but part of me doesn’t. It’s hard to explain how both feelings can exist at once.
My partner’s father also passed away unexpectedly this morning. I’m trying to be there for him while feeling overwhelmed myself. He usually takes such good care of me. I don’t mind being the one supporting him now. I just wish I weren’t dealing with the emotions and stress of pregnancy so I could show up as my best self.

I know the decision is mine, but I feel so torn. Has anyone here considered or had an abortion while part of them still wanted the pregnancy? How did you work through that uncertainty? I could really use support from people who understand.

Hello,

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