u/Adept_Finish_4369

I have truly reached a breaking point. I hate gambling so much, and I despise the grip it has on me. I’ve quit multiple drugs that were deemed impossible to quit, no biggie. But gambling? I just can’t fucking knock it. It makes me feel powerless. I’m embarrassed to be an addict to such a simple behavior. I’m ashamed of myself-and I suppose that’s why I still haven’t told anyone around me. But I think that’s the very thing that allows this to continue and thrive, the silence.
Such a pathetic addiction wouldn’t be able to survive if it was watched over by normal people. They’d laugh. They’d humiliate me, and that would genuinely knock some sense into me. But I’m too embarrassed to even strike that match, too ashamed to ever tell a soul. So for that, I think I’m stuck.
I’ve “quit” probably 100 times. Relapse is no stranger. So is that just….it? This is just something I have to live with?

Hate on HH and HHE all you want. They are the only Projects that have consistently given me 60 hours a week.

Yeah, hourly is low. Yeah, pay can be inconsistent. But it’s still kickin!

Bring me back to project L****** when we were all making $10k a week simply for FaceTiming people 😂

It’s a habit of mine, and many of us problem gamblers, to fall into the cycle of doom.
I relapsed a few days ago - then hit a saving grace which put me largely in profit.
I thought to myself-woah, I can FINALLY end on a win! I’m satisfied now!

As you guys can imagine, this didn’t last. These last few days were spent of me giving that money back, and then some.
It’s the cycle of doom, it will never end until you stop feeding it.

Hey all, I’m a longtime poster on the sub, and there’s been some genuinely helpful advice over the years.
One thing I’ve never been able to kick though, is my past dwelling mindset.

I have no debt currently. That’s a GREAT thing. But, I still dwell on how high my net worth used to be and how low it is now, because of the gambling that was done in the past.

This mindset is what causes 90% of my relapses..I feel out of hope with my current situation and forever chase that once had net worth. It’s especially hard, because a good majority of my worth was created WITH gambling.

How do I fully reset, accept my losses as a major learning lesson and canon event, and ultimately push forward?

I have been a degenerate gambler for around 6 years now. That is especially concerning when you hear that I am only 21 years of age.

Throughout these years, I have “quit” more times than I can count.
Each time I quit, I find myself in the same exact loop. I start working super hard, doing well for myself..and then it’s almost like I get bored.
Risk finds its way back into my life.
Whether thats sports betting, online slots, or even ripping sports card packs…it comes back to me.

So while I have quit numerous methods of consumption, the drug of gambling continues to find me, wherever I am.

This issue isn’t just a “block all sites” on your computer fix.
I am wired to gamble, and I am wired to engage in risky behaviors.

So I guess what I am getting at is this.

How the f**k do you manage to take this wiring, and use it for good?

Hey all, here to share something that’s helped In my recovery immensely.

I’m sure it’s not uncommon knowledge at this point, but get as busy as you can. Add a hobby. Start going to the gym. Learn a new skill.

Downtime was my biggest trigger. Coupled with undiagnosed ADHD (at the time), I spiraled. My brain craved any sort of dopamine.

My recovery hasn’t been perfect by any means. I started the process less than a year ago after losing everything..but slow progress is better than no progress.

Just some hopium for your feed. Love you all 🫡