u/AdministrativeBig211

Hi everyone I posted here about 3 weeks ago but I had my jaw surgery on June 30th. I had le fort 1 with a distraction device that was turned daily for about 18 days. I am almost a month post op I’m too lazy and tired to bc check the date but I’m in so much mental pain. I’m 16 right now but my last surgery (before this one) I think I was 12? It’s been a while but while recovering I’ve had thoughts of just wanting to die. It’s been very hard for me to stay strong. The pain was incredibly intense during the distractions (when the device was turned) and I often wake up with nightmares now even though the process ended. We stopped distracting at 18 mm my upper jaw was forward to match my lower. We physically turned it 18 times but we doubt it actually progressed 18 mm because my underbite was 1 cm originally. Another concern I also feel like the hole in my pallet reopened up. Actually I’m certain because food comes through my nose. I already had 2 bone grafts to fix this yet it’s open again. I’m just in so much discomfort and I don’t know what to do. I know time will pass but it seems so slow. I just want to be done with all of this pain. My surgeon said I will have another jaw correction surgery next summer, along with a small surgery in a few months to take the metal plates out of my face. I can’t do all of this. I can’t take it anymore I’m in so much pain I almost just want to take everything out of my face and be comfortable. Please tell me it gets better I’m trying to encourage myself but my parents are very traditional and not patient with me. They often yell at me for crying or showing any emotion. Honestly I gave up on looking forward to looking “normal” I just want to be put out of this misery. I just want to go back to my normal self. I have two pieces of metal sticking out from the sides of my nose I’m upset because im sure there will be a scar when it is removed and until then my face just looks scary. My face is so “bulged” forward, and I feel like my nostrils are a lot more uneven now. I’m so unhappy with the results.im just hoping I won’t look like this permanently

I’m on day 2 after surgery and my whole face is in pain. I don’t know what to do I got the distraction today they rotated the screw and it was the worst pain I’ve ever experienced. I also haven’t been eating from the pressure in my mouth from swallowing. Can someone tell me if it gets better please. I have 10 more days of rotating but I’m not going home because there’s no way I’d be able to do it without being held down. My whole face is numb and I feel like my lips are on fire. I wish I didn’t even do it the pain is so bad.

So basically my acc got suspended it’s asking for verification like an id or video and i’m under 18. My acc used to be a teen acc but i used my dads id and they let me switch to a normal acc (no restrictions). I’m wondering for the Suspension should i use my real face or my dad? Because if i use my real face im under 18 they’re going to know and i don’t know if it’ll get permanently banned for that. I didn’t have any pictures of my face on the actual account so if i used my dads ID would that work????