u/Admirable-Ear-7733

was involved with a man for many years. About two years ago, he left me for another girl. It completely broke me. I lost around 10 kg, had panic attacks, cried almost every night, and spent months trying to rebuild my life.
Eventually, I moved to a new city for my new job. I was finally becoming independent and happy again. I genuinely thought I had moved on.
Then, after about 1.5 years, he suddenly came back into my life. He started acting very caring and supportive. He would call me every night, text me constantly, say he cared about me, and we became emotionally and intimate involved again. There were intimate chats, video calls, and a lot of emotional closeness. I honestly believed he had changed.
Then, about a month or two ago, everything changed. He started picking unnecessary fights, became cold, abusive, and dismissive. Now he ignores my messages, blocks my calls, mutes me, insults me, and says things like “I don’t care about you,” “Go to hell,” and calls me toxic and abusive.
One complicated part of this story is that, in the past, I created a fake Reddit account because I suspected he was talking to other women. I know that was wrong, and I’ve taken responsibility for it. He now says everything he did after coming back was “revenge” for that fake account.
I don’t know if I believe that explanation, because if someone truly wanted nothing to do with me, why spend months calling, texting, being affectionate, and becoming intimate again?
What hurts the most is that every time I start healing, he comes back, and I end up back at square one.
I’m also under a lot of stress because my parents are elderly and need my support. Instead of focusing on my family, my career, and my own future, I’m stuck in this emotional cycle.
I’ve blocked him now, but I still feel confused, guilty, and emotionally exhausted.
I have screenshots of the conversations where he became abusive, but I’m not posting them to attack him. I’m posting because I genuinely need advice.

Does this sound like emotional manipulation or am I missing something?
How do I stop getting pulled back into this cycle?
Should I simply maintain no contact, or is there any reason to have one final conversation?
At what point should I consider speaking to a lawyer if someone shares intimate conversations or private content without my permission?
Pleaseq be honest. If you think I’ve made mistakes too, tell me.
TL; DR , i genuinely want to heal and make sure I never end up in a relationship like this again. And looking to heal myself from all this trauma