u/Admirable-Grab-531

Lately, I’ve been realizing that if I don't send the first message, my inbox is completely dead. It feels like my "friends" don't actually care or think about me unless I'm standing right in front of them.

I tried opening up to someone about how isolating this feels—telling them that I feel like an insect, where people only notice you when you cross their path, and how they get stepped on every day without anyone caring. The guy just turned around and made fun of me for saying it.

It sucks because I feel like I have a lot of depth and a lot of care to give, but I'm just getting a fraction of that energy back from the people around me. It’s making me feel completely disconnected and like I have to put up an emotional shield just to protect myself.

I’m trying to channel this frustration into working on myself and focusing on my sports/training this summer, but the isolation is heavy tonight. Anyone else out there dealing with the same thing, or trying to navigate team sports when you realize you can't trust the people around you?

Lately, I’ve been realizing that if I don't send the first message, my inbox is completely dead. It feels like my "friends" don't actually care or think about me unless I'm standing right in front of them.

I tried opening up to someone about how isolating this feels—telling them that I feel like an insect, where people only notice you when you cross their path, and how they get stepped on every day without anyone caring. The guy just turned around and made fun of me for saying it.

It sucks because I feel like I have a lot of depth and a lot of care to give, but I'm just getting a fraction of that energy back from the people around me. It’s making me feel completely disconnected and like I have to put up an emotional shield just to protect myself.

I’m trying to channel this frustration into working on myself and focusing on my sports/training this summer, but the isolation is heavy tonight. Anyone else out there dealing with the same thing, or trying to navigate team sports when you realize you can't trust the people around you?