LOST A FRIEND
I had a friend i met at my university almost 16 years ago. We were inseparable amd almost did everything together. To the point we graduated together and decided to go on the same path for our masters. We both got accepted to same university for our masters overseas in USA. We were in the middle east btw. I went before him to settle the apartment to know he applied to another university and got accepted there and didnt even let me know and he decided to go to another state instead. I felt betrayed since we had plans together. I had to go through It all alone unfortunately but our friendship grew stronger. We were talking for hours on the phone, I was honestly way ahead of him professionally due that I had the US citizenship and he was on a visa so he went through a lot, and almost had to leave the country so many times because no one wanted to sponsor him. I supported him and we kept talking for almost 10 years on the phone and we met many time in person in his state (new york). We even opened a joint podcast youtube channel and our friendship was strong as ever. But I always felt he envied me and made me feel multiple times that I am a bad influence on him and the reason why he is not evolving in life is because he has friends like me. Maybe he thinks im offering bad advice because I dont want him to evolve which is completely not true. I always supported him in all his states professionally and even emotionally when we went through so many breakups. One day we were talking on the phone and he mentioned that a now decided big things and want to change his life radically and he like God himself is speaking to him and felt Him in his room. This day was the last day he ever spoke to me. He is completely gone disappeared. I didnt contact him for weeks trying to give him a break but cant shake the feeling he is moving on from our friendship. Weeks turns to months and months turned to years. I still have him on social media but he just completely talking to me. I do miss him and sometimes wonder why this happened. I keep wanting to talk to him and when I hold my phone , I decide not to because he seems to not care and he obviously moved on and really dont know what to say after years of ghosting me.