u/AdmiralKaiser

(For the record, it's NOT a hentai game)

It was a browser point and click game, I played a few times and every once in a while I remember it. I recall you start in your bedroom and the next stage is in your neighbour apartment and it's a BDSM room and you even found a sheep on it.

The endgame was that you needed to have enough money so they let you in the Playboy Mansion and there were some stages you could go for like an ice-cream shop in the middle of a crossroad and a terrorist shop with the face of Osama Bin Laden.

I don't have any image of it cause it has been years now. If anyone recalls something like that, please help!

In the period of my life I'm going through, that's one of her names that I'm feeling some interesting in researching about. But on a quick research, I hear mentions that this epiteth is quite "difficult" to work with. Difficult in the meaning of requiring study, discipline, almost as if she was like a late stage of understanding the totality and the magic of Hekate, almost as if she was dangerous. In more mundane terms, that epiteth would be like the last year of college.

My question is: Is that really the case? Is that an epiteth that is meant to be worked only when you are advanced on your studies? Should I really be careful when dealing with that face of Hekate or some folks are exaggerating?

(Also, where could I learn more about her and how to work with her?)

In the period of my life I'm going through, that's one of her names that I'm feeling some interesting in researching about. But on a quick research, I hear mentions that this epiteth is quite "difficult" to work with. Difficult in the meaning of requiring study, discipline, almost as if she was like a late stage of understanding the totality and the magic of Hekate, almost as if she was dangerous. In more mundane terms, that epiteth would be like the last year of college.

My question is: Is that really the case? Is that an epiteth that is meant to be worked only when you are advanced on your studies? Should I really be careful when dealing with that face of Hekate or some folks are exaggerating?

(Also, where could I learn more about her and how to work with her?)

I consulted other people close to me but I figure I should consult you guys too. I have been praising Hekate and honoring her as I could for around 3-4 years now but from time to time I lose consistency because of one of the reasons in the title (Maybe all of the three combined).

Everytime I start digging and studying, at some point, I feel overwhelmed and/or lazy and stop for some time but I never stopped praying to her (Although I heard that, at some point, only that isn't enough). Right now I'm trying to reconnect with her because of my grief but I'm hitting the same wall: lack of discipline, of motivation.

Sometimes I feel scared that Hekate is disappointed at me. I feel disappointed at myself. It has been years now and I haven't been able to focus and I learnt almost nothing magically. I know all about history and facts but in practical terms, I know very little or don't have energy to do things.

I would like some advice on that matter, please. Am I being too hard on myself or the path with Hekate is really that demanding?

I consulted other people close to me but I figure I should consult you guys too. I have been praising Hekate and honoring her as I could for around 3-4 years now but from time to time I lose consistency because of one of the reasons in the title (Maybe all of the three combined).

Everytime I start digging and studying, at some point, I feel overwhelmed and/or lazy and stop for some time but I never stopped praying to her (Although I heard that, at some point, only that isn't enough). Right now I'm trying to reconnect with her because of my grief but I'm hitting the same wall: lack of discipline, of motivation.

Sometimes I feel scared that Hekate is disappointed at me. I feel disappointed at myself. It has been years now and I haven't been able to focus and I learnt almost nothing magically. I know all about history and facts but in practical terms, I know very little or don't have energy to do things.

I would like some advice on that matter, please. Am I being too hard on myself or the path with Hekate is really that demanding?

Não diria que é exatamente uma conquista porque ainda me dói.

A pessoa que mais amei nessa vida morreu mês passado e, por causa de um desentendimento onde não tive nem a chance de me explicar, todos os meus melhores amigos se afastaram e eu fiquei manchado como um predador mentiroso (Eu fiz uma amizade com uma pessoa que eu sempre soube que tinha namorado e ficamos próximos. Do nada, inventaram que eu tava flertando com ela e me aproveitando do momento de fragilidade).

Sabado do dia 18, eu estava prestes a tentar suicídio porque não aguentava mais o luto e a ausência dessas pessoas na minha vida. Mas eu fui até um ultimo lugar naquela noite e me foi convencido a continuar vivendo mais um pouco. Só espero que não viva por muito tempo.

É isso, essa é a conquista. Eu sobrevivi. Agora só tenho que lidar com essa dor do luto e da solidão que não sei lidar