I feel like a fraud
Does it also bother anyone that ur not gonna be the same in other alternative universe ( if they are real) for example in this universe i wanna be somewhat smarter like learn chemistry or biochemistry and the cause of it is sherlock i wanted to be smart like him but now it got me thinking of in another universe there was no sherlock would i still be like this? Like what if in another universe a pursued martial arts or maybe some other stuff and i have come up with my own answers like i said to myself its called alternative universe because its in the word that it will be different then this universe or that since sherlock maybe wouldnt exist in another universe so i cant really know about him to want to be smart like him case closed but i still want my alternative selfs to be smart like i know we are locked in this universe but i still feel like a fraud or larper of intelligence like if maybe i didnt come across sherlock then wouldnt have researched his methods and since i can remember my childhood or early teens i cant really say that if i was smart or no the only thing i remember is how obsessed i was with hand to hand combat and martial arts