(Not) Being smart
Hi , i am a 20 year old bachelorate student. I want to share a real concern that i cannot take off my mind of it. Since a little age, i, have no idea why, always was obsessed with if i was smart or not. I always try to compete with people around me on every aspect of life, comparing docial relationships, college, hobbies, sports, anything that you can think of. I have a great fear of being less intelligent than i think i am, and a great hope in me that i am extremely smart for some reason. I always try to compare myself with scientists( because I want to become one) then i see them that they were smarter than me in their childhood, this makes me extremely sad. How can i know if i am smart, or is this even a sensible question? Thank you in advance