22M - Everyone Thinks I’m Successful, But The Truth Is I’ve Been Faking My Entire Life
Hi Reddit, I’m 22M and I honestly feel like I’ve built my life on lies. I started freelancing when I was 18-19 with big dreams, and while I did make some money here and there, I never became successful because I kept procrastinating, avoiding work, and failing to deliver projects on time. I lost clients because of my own laziness and lack of discipline. At the same time, I kept creating this fake image around myself by flexing in front of friends that I make a lot more money than I actually do. My salary is around 70k, but I’ve told people it’s 1.5L, and now most people think I’m financially successful when in reality I barely have savings. I feel guilty all the time because every lie needs another lie to maintain it, and it’s mentally exhausting. Some nights I stay awake till 2-3 AM overthinking everything and wondering if I should just disappear somewhere and start over with a completely honest life. I know I’m ambitious, but I also feel like I’ve become an imposter who keeps disappointing himself. Has anyone else dealt with this kind of guilt and fake identity? How do you rebuild self-respect after lying for so long?