u/Rainbowdash6000

dont get me wrong, i still love it and read the new books amd they still have great parts. but like the old books had extremely iconic and recognizable chatecters and personalities. there were better chatecter arcs and chatecter development, and jt didn't feel rushed, more like you grew with the charecter. the structure of the clans was very uniform, and well, structured. there were clear boundaries and ranks. everyone had a place amd did well in it. it felt more like home. and starclan, dont get me started. starclan used to feel like this extremely incredible spiritual place with utmost honor, respect and reverence. whatever starclan said went. they were the supreme beings. their omens and prophecies were taken extremely seriously, and they guided the clans through everything. now the cats treat starclan like a joke, and well, they arent wrong sometimes. theyve abandoned the clans and dont even seem to care. the omens are extremely vague and they won't help anyone.

when i first found the warrior cat books in my library at 8 years old ashfur was instantly my favorite (after bringing the books to my mom and asking for permission to read them) i roleplayed him in games, drew him, loveddd him. i was very shocked when he did some.. questionable things (blocking jaypaw lionblaze and hollyleaf in the fire while confronting squirlflight) but he was so much my favorite character i lowkey just let it slide 😭 then he DIED and i was devastated. imagine how shocked i was years later at like age 13 finding out he was taking over the clans in the form of bramblestar. yeah, i was shook to my core. cant believe they had to do my favorite character like that

example:

(my friend likes something)

me: wow they must really enjoy that thing and know a lot about it!

(i like something)

me: omg im litterally faking liking this thing to seem cooler i litterally have no personality or interest

its stuff like that all the time. say i sit a certain way, rest my head on my hands, or make a certain facial expression, im thinking, "why am i trying to copy other peoples body language and movements?" "why cant i be original?" " how does everyone else just know how to move?" i think someone could just look at me and think, "oh shes only saying (random thing) for this exact reason, she only wants attention for saying that, these are her exact motives behind saying that thing" LIKE I CANT EVEN MAKE IT MAKE SENSE. am i broken?

this breakup destroyed me. its been five months since, veryyy tiny periods of no contact right after it first happened, and they were all broken by me. now we are friends again, amd we have a trio with another friend. its difficult because as a trio we have been close for a very long time, even before my ex and i even got together. so now that weve broken up that hasnt changed, even tho stuff was rlly weird when it first happened. but now ive realized jm still in love with him and im only gettjng worse. i want him to feel the lose of not talking to me, which is something i should have done a long time ago. its hard because i still see him all the time. help me stay no contact plsssss

example:

(my friend likes something)

me: wow they must really enjoy that thing and know a lot about it!

(i like something)

me: omg im litterally faking liking this thing to seem cooler i litterally have no personality or interest

its stuff like that all the time. say i sit a certain way, rest my head on my hands, or make a certain facial expression, im thinking, "why am i trying to copy other peoples body language and movements?" "why cant i be original?" " how does everyone else just know how to move?" i think someone could just look at me and think, "oh shes only saying (random thing) for this exact reason, she only wants attention for saying that, these are her exact motives behind saying that thing" LIKE I CANT EVEN MAKE IT MAKE SENSE. am i broken?

ive had an eating disorder since i was 12. i had body hatred as young as 8. my main goal and focus for about 6 years has been losinh weight. i restrict constantly, starve when i can. for as long as a can remember. getting better sounds awful. because getting better would be getting bigger and i already feel massively overweigjt even though im not. i get excited when i think about moving out and living alone because ill finally be able to live my life without eating/eating as little as i want. im so sick and twisted

two fucking years. that was such a long time. i KNEW i would never ever do it again. i felt it in my soul and i had NO desire to ever put myself through that again. i earned that recovery and i was so proud. now im back in the same boat. already have a new very bad permanent scar . thought my days of permanent scars where over, and what i had was what i had. but nope now i have to have this one on my body until the day i die, and its even worse than the ones before. i feel like such a failure i hate myself.