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I simply don’t know how much longer I can do it. I have fought relentlessly for 12 months straight. Scratched and clawed to get out of bed to juice after horrific nights of sleep. Fought to make the 20-foot walk from my chair to the bathroom, time and time again. Fought to make it to the store to continue feeding the never ending supply of ripe bananas required to sustain me. Fought through snow days, rain days, barely finding a way to make it from the parking lot to the store; all so that I can then hunch over into my grocery cart to use it as a walker to help me get through the store. Suffering through these grocery trips at least 4x a week because it is the only way to have a steady stream of bananas that ripen at different times.

Spending $350-$400 a month on Vimergy supplements. Scooping three things of Micro C every day for ages. Buckets upon buckets of spirulina and barley grass juice powder, all of which I try to believe is “stopping pathogen growth”. The same spirulina which I try to believe is “rebuilding my nervous system”, as I see my neurological systems get worse and worse. As I start taking lemon balm to help; and as it does help a bit in the front of my legs before a horrific increase in symptoms in the back of my legs to completely outweigh any of the positive relief I felt. Not touching fat in about a year.

Drinking 100-133 fl. oz. of organic coconut water every single day. Setting my timer for 2 hours every single time I finish one of my meals.

I beg the angels every single night before bed without fail to just give me 15-20% of relief (relief that I sustain) in my neurological symptoms to help me relax a bit and help me move through my days with a bit more ease.

Never ever being allowed to vent, express frustration, or complain about my situation to anyone. If I complain to doctors, I am told I am stupid for doing MM and to stop what I am doing. If I complain to family, I am told I am stupid for doing MM and to stop what I am doing. If I complain to the few friends that haven’t abandoned me, I am told I am stupid for doing MM and to stop what I am doing. If I complain that I don’t have any help, I am told I am stupid for doing MM and to stop what I am doing. I am also told that I need to be tougher because I am a man; and men need to be tough.

I am told I need more celery juice, when I have had to recently stop making it altogether, because it is too difficult for me. I am told to do ten A369 cleanses each month, all of which I cannot do.

All while I am defending MM online, to the stupid carnivore followers, to my family, etc. Saying “this is the truth, I promise”, all while they see shit literally falling out of my ass onto the floor and onto the nice rugs we have. While I go over a month without showering. While I have smoothie all over my clothes and beard. While I use every wall in the house as a way to help me balance while I walk.

Again, as I said. I have simply had to stop making celery juice, as of two weeks ago. Perhaps it was a sign from God telling me to take it easier (my washing machine broke, which I use to clean my towels that I wipe the celery with; that’s when I stopped). I do not know. But I can no longer do it on top of everything else I need to do to follow MM protocols.

Something must be done to help the sickest of the sick on Medical Medium. If it is going to be such a horrifyingly difficult process for some, I feel we need to do more for these people. I don’t think “do your best!” is good enough. We need MM-approved people that can help with caregiving type tasks. Maybe it’s “travel nurse” style stuff for people who commit to helping for 6 months at a time or something. And we raise the funds through all of Anthony’s connections to help do it. Or maybe it’s all centralized in one location. I don’t know.

The sickest of the sick do not benefit from another post, another book, etc. We have all the information that we need, but we are simply too sick to execute on it; we need the physical help. Our lives literally depend on it.

I’ve run out of words to say, but this just about sums up my frustration. The end.

I’m not asking for perfect overnight healing. I simply want to be able to care for myself, even if it’s a struggle.

In 2024, the primary between Wesley Bell and Cori Bush became the second most expensive primary in American history. There was an enormous amount of spending by groups with foreign interests, resulting in a whopping total spending amount of $19 million.

Then also in 2024, the primary in New York between Jamaal Bowman and George Latimer set a new record for total primary spending in a race at nearly $25 million. The spending was again driven in largest part by similar groups with foreign interests.

Fast forward to today. Whether you lean left or right, Thomas Massie is an incredibly brave politician for spearheading the effort to release the JE files. He put everything on the line to fight for justice for the victims. In Kentucky, he is now a part of the new most expensive primary in American history; spending is currently at $35 million and potentially still increasing. Again, the spending is driven almost entirely by the same foreign interest groups represented in the first two elections.

I don’t know how much I really need to say about this, other than that this is absolutely fucking crazy. It is anti-American and anti-democratic in every way. Every single person that can look at the situation with any kind of objectivity knows this is bad for our country, our states, our towns. I hope people wake up. This is madness.

I’m surely not worried about this for myself right now, but I’ve wondered about it.

IUDs seem terrible with the copper / hormonal stuff.

Not sure about spermicide gels / diaphragms; but they seem weird.

Pills of course seem to carry lots of risks.

Even though I really don’t like the idea of a man or woman getting surgery to destroy their fertility, it does almost seem like the best “surefire” option. But surely there are risks to these surgeries as well?

I don’t know. I guess some kind of NFP seems best, but it also seems like it’s very far from perfect.

I guess what it comes down to is that fertility / pregnancy / creation probably isn’t something that we’re “supposed to” be unnaturally interfering with. But people of course want to have sex.

Has AW ever said what’s best? What’s your experience been?

I typically get the Josie’s Organics, which is usually a darker green. Yesterday they only had from C&B Farms, and it was a fairly lighter green. Is some cilantro just a lighter green than others? Or does this mean it’s bad?

But I’ll admit that I’ve struggled a bit with the oxalates one.

“There are oxalates in every single fruit and vegetable on the planet. The vast array of nutrients in so-called high oxalate leafy greens and celery are some of the most nutritious available to us. Medical research and science has not discovered that there are anti-oxalates in fruits, vegetables, and leafy greens that prevent the oxalates from causing us the damage the current trend tells us they do.”

The thing that I think is weird is that he says there are anti-oxalates in these foods that prevent the oxalates from doing harm. Which of course does imply that oxalates, in fact, can have a negative impact on us. That’s great if there are anti-oxalates built into the plants to protect us from them, but it makes me wonder why oxalates would even exist in the first place.

I hope people don’t interpret this wrong. It’s just one of very few of his explanations that I’ve always struggled with.

It’s small, but I often use scissors to cut open my organic frozen mango bags. I’ve just been using an old pair of scissors; but wanted to see if anyone had recommendations for scissors that are as non-toxic as possible.

Most seem to have titanium coatings, which I’d love to avoid if I can.

Thank you!