u/AdvisorKitchen9023

I am 32M, a father of two - have been absolutely terrified of flying since my adolescense. Based in Zurich. I have an upcoming trip to Greece with my family next week. Then, from Turkey flying to Seoul through Astana for my friend's bachelor's party.

I am extremely anxious! Recently had a flight to London and back and I was worried all the time until the plane took off - twice. Flying with my family - scared to lose them; flying alone - additionally worried that I am leaving my family behind. Going is the most scary thing for me; and acting upon my fear by staying makes me feel miserable.

I read the SOAR by Tom Bunn; did therapy; had hypnosis; and read a few books about the coping mechanisms against anxiety. There is no magic pill to get rid of it - instead despite experiencing them, shaking and trembling - still to choose to hug the wife and kids; take the taxi; check-in the luggage; get through the gates; board the plane; and simply surrender.

I am scared to an extend that feels is beyond my tolerance.

Wish me a safe journey! And again for another. And the one that comes after please. I don't want to ruin my family's holiday; and friendship with my old buddy (such a bastard - couldn't have a party somewhere in Europe?!).

I am not sure what exactly I want from this post. I guess I seek a bit of attention, reassurance (whatever that means) and support. However I started it as a diary-like entry.

Peace.