Heyyy, so uhh I'm not really a fan of very public servers that have like 100+ members because of lag and stuff, plus I genuinely wanna get to know others while traversing through minecraft ykwim?
I'm 18, if that helps at all hahah. Just saw that some have an age restriction, so there that goes. I'd love to get to know everyone though!
Also looking for a chill minecraft server/SMP. Just not too many addons at least, and typical gameplay of minecraft you feel me?
For context, we've (18M and 17F, 4 months age gap) been together for like around a full year now. To be honest, I mean I did find her pretty and stuff when we first met, but what really got me in the beginning was her kindness. She gave off a very kind and warm aura that I couldn't explain, which made me interested in her. Her maturity was what hooked me in. Then, her ambitions and mindset followed. Then, her confidence—HER CONFIDENCE!! Oh my God, I promise I fell in love with her soul, her heart, anything non-physical as a guy about to enter college. She's so kind with others, she loves her family, she's as big of a flirt as I am, we're ambitious this early on (I do freelancing and she works in her family business), and she's the best thing that has ever happened to me (I'm in the most secure relationship that I have ever been in and I'm so happy!!!). Sometimes I cannot fathom how lucky I am to have her, and the best part is that as people that really are busy with our own lives already, what we have is a little lower maintenance than most relationships. Did I mention how understanding she is? OH MY!
But lately, I've been feeling guilty because all of the sudden I'm starting to see my girlfriend in a light I don't think I should be seeing her in. I've been seeing her as more of a woman than a girl. She gets hotter, more gorgeous, and attractive as the days pass. And the weirdest part is all of this began so suddenly. Sometimes I can't stop but think that she's the prettiest thing I've ever laid my eyes on. But sometimes I get those urges with you know, guy stuff late at night thinking of her hahah and I don't know if this is normal, healthy, and okay. I've always thought of lust as a bad thing, so right now I'm stuck between thinking if I have a problem with me or is this normal?? I've been so used to toxic relationships that I don't know what's normal and okay anymore. But I can't beat the feeling of guilt because it feels so wrong feeling this way of her.
I talked about this with her the other day and she laughed. She said it's more than okay with her because it's hormones and stuff plus she feels the same way with me, and she knows most of the stuff I typed here. But am I a creep for this? Is this lust? All of this has been making me think if what I have is love for her or lust, I don't know anymore huhu