u/Affectionate-Fault46

I heard doing this is supposed to help with depression and make you have a less negative outlook. I’m trying to learn how to accept parts of myself that make me me and I realized the reason I don’t is because no one’s ever loved that part of me. My parents may have loved their son, but never loved me yk? How can I learn to love myself when I feels like all of society hates me?

This happened a few years ago but I was thinking about it the other day. When I was younger I was trying to lucid dream and had an experience that I don’t understand. I started by falling asleep using my fan as an anchor, my body fell asleep and I was flashed by a bright white light void with a loud tinnitus like ringing sound, I tried to stay calm and let myself fall deeper into sleep and as I did it slowly started to fade and I found myself on a stage playing drums (I hadn’t played drums at that point but did 5 years later and it feels like drums were meant to be my instrument with how naturally I can play them). I was playing for a small crowd of about maybe 3 people that seemed super into it and were heavily supporting me, after I finished playing they ran into another room and I chased after them and found myself in the most vivid lifelike version of my room which I had just fell asleep in irl and they seemed to vanish out of existence. I could open my eyes as wide as possible and still wouldn’t wake up in real life and had full control of this body. I immediately went to my brothers room but no one was there. The part that shocked me though was it was daytime and deep into winter outside the window (it was summer irl). Around me were these particles floating in the air that seem similar to the particles in the stranger things upside down. I then went up the stairs to the main area of the house and could see the rest of it through the glass door however I woke up when I tried to go through. How would one interpret this?

Every time a new celebrity pops up and is genuinely an evil person people instantly just start making fun of them for having autism instead of the fact that they’re fucking evil. It pisses me off. My example for this is Clavicular, it’s never “oh he almost murdered someone” or “oh he treats women like shit” no it’s “haha he got overstimulated during this” or “haha watch this loser unmask.” Genuinely what the fuck. I’m so tired of this. NTs only have empathy for their own groups and drop all of it for everything else the second they don’t like one person from another group. And yet we lack empathy. Bullshit. It’s not just celebrities too, every NT I’ve ever masked around eventually at some point calls someone they don’t like autistic.