u/AffectionateCode426

You can’t get a shiny Meltan from the mystery box unless it’s a specific event where you actually CAN get one. I did my first mystery box(es) during an event apparently because I got two, and have opened up like 8 boxes since and haven’t gotten a single one. Then I thought “this can’t be right, I’m gonna google it” and sure enough…I been wasting an hour every couple days fervently searching for something that is impossible to obtain. I feel dumb, so wanted to share ha.

Boom, I slip and take 1mg klon. Didn’t feel great but still proceeded to do it two more days, today being day 3. Me and my fiancé decided to take even more of a break, meaning less contact, and I’m afraid to ask for more pills to finish the taper.

Obviously I handled the “break” poorly emotionally and impulsively took a full mg (not even like me at my worst) and not only one, but three days in a row…best part is (not kidding here) I didn’t enjoy it. I feel like crap and flat and tired and unmotivated.

Even after crumbs for a while and multiple days between crumbs (only for placebo at that point, but it helped) I was feeling anxious and weird, but way better then I feel now after three days of 1mg. It ain’t like other drugs that cover all your emotions…strictly anxiety. I’m sad, angry, and emotionally drained…not anxious. So I’m done with benzos for good ha. Got three more 1mg and jist gonna taper one with .33 x3 days, one with . 20 for 5 days, then .10 for 10 days then boom, done. Enough. I have a two week break now from work starting next weekend, goin out of town with family, and just gonna power through. Hoping being out in nature will help with the detox.

I’ve been on and off for about 4 months, about 50/50 honestly, but enough to create issues. I don’t expect but am prepared for the worst. Been there before with a very ignorant phenibut habit over a decade ago, luckily short lived but I expect this to be similar which is crazy anxiety physically and mentally, deep dark depression, and lack of mojo/libido/motivation…and anhedonia from hell.

I’m ready for it! I need my life and my future wife back! But also pissed at her, but that’s another sub’s story (pun intended).