Feeling very insecure :(
For context I am F17 and about to go into my senior year, I have always grown up on the heavier side. Not like super super big but I noticeably look bigger. Especially being around 5’9-5’10 I feel like my weight ‘fits me’ in a sense. I still have somewhat of a shape, but whenever people take picture of me I notice how like big I look, in certain clothes, in mirrors. At times I don’t hate it, like don’t care for it but there are times where I’m like… ugh.
Even in pictures with my skinnier friends it’s the worst because I can’t help but the notice the stark difference, I never post pictures of my full body because I’m just insecure about how I look, everything is just fuller.
I’ve tried going to the gym and eating better, I’ve dropped weight but I still look and feel the same. Last year I lost around almost 20 pounds but I still looked the same, I gained it all back… and still looked the same. It’s crazy because no matter if I eat more or less I stay in this like set weight. It’s insane. I don’t want to go into my senior year feeling super insecure about myself. It’s lowkey ruining my self esteem. :(