u/Afraid_Mortgage6392

For context, I am extremely ugly and probably have some form of autism; not severe to where I can't manage myself, but severe enough to where it's extremely present on my face.

Despite me at least being decently smart, I find it hard for people to recognize me as such, and i usually just get labeled as extremely mentally disabled and wrote off. With that being said, how do you guys find jobs? I understand my form of ugly is a bit different than others, as my ugliness causes people to doubt my abilities, but if you could recommend me some tips or describe your own personal experiences getting jobs that would be nice.

Also, I'd love to hear from others in a similar situation to me who have had to deal with similar social stagnation.

The main issue I struggle with is maintaining consistent progress and not falling back into cheap dopamine cycles. Something I do often is I will have a couple days of genuine progress where I avoid cheap dopamine, except for in short bursts, and don't fall into my binge cycles, which usually last 3 days. But then, like a domino things eventually fall back into place, and I return to my cheap dopamine hunt. The source of this, I believe, is brief little dopamine troughs I have towards the end of the day. At around 6:00pm, or towards nighttime if I hit the gym, my brain feels fatigued, not like tired fatigued, but like fatigued in a way that it avoids all high effort dopamine in search of cheap, low-effort dopamine. This begins my downfall, which I call a destruction period, lasting about 3 days, and the cycle repeats again and again.

I have low will power so I find it difficult to fight my brain in these situations, and even destruction period just reinforces my brain to crave these cheap dopamine sources. I've come up with some solutions, including letting my brain have a scheduled period of low-effort dopamine, but that just delays the destruction period instead of solving it. I realized that I likely cannot do this on my own, so I am inquiring for help from this subreddit. I really wanna lock in and focus on the 4 most important things in my life - gym, content creation, writing, and philosophy, but the dopamine cycle prevents me from doing so.

The main issue I struggle with is maintaining consistent progress and not falling back into cheap dopamine cycles. Something I do often is I will have a couple days of genuine progress where I avoid cheap dopamine, except for in short bursts, and don't fall into my binge cycles, which usually last 3 days. But then, like a domino things eventually fall back into place, and I return to my cheap dopamine hunt. The source of this, I believe, is brief little dopamine troughs I have towards the end of the day. At around 6:00, or towards nighttime if I hit the gym, my brain feels fatigued, not like tired fatigued, but like fatigued in a way that it avoids all high effort dopamine in search of cheap, low-effort dopamine. This begins my downfall, which I call a destruction period, lasting about 3 days, and the cycle repeats again and again.

I have low will power so I find it difficult to fight my brain in these situations, and even destruction period just reinforces my brain to crave these cheap dopamine sources. I've come up with some solutions, including letting my brain have a scheduled period of low-effort dopamine, but that just delays the destruction period instead of solving it. I realized that I likely cannot do this on my own, so I am inquiring for help from this subreddit. I really wanna lock in and focus on the 4 most important things in my life - gym, content creation, writing, and philosophy, but the dopamine cycle prevents me from doing so.