u/After_Lawfulness_239

I really wish Derminator would provide their own professionally produced videos to demonstrate their product. Every time I'm at their product page and I'm about to pull the trigger and buy this thing, I have to see this terrible image of some rando on youtube with a clickbait AI image. And when you look into this creator, this random dude only posted about microneedling or even skincare only ONE time (his other handful of videos are about AI, so no microneedling results or follow ups, no other interest in skincare), and OwnDoc even had to put a disclaimer to say the guy in the video isn't even doing it correctly! Why link to this random video then??

If not a video produced by the derminator company, I would feel much better if they linked to a skincare professional demonstrating the product. Having to see this AI video man bleeding right in the web shop... makes it hard for me to trust I'm not getting tricked into some scam.

Derminator has so many supporters on this reddit, which makes me tempted to order the product anyway. But, anybody else feel this way? god this youtube thumbnail gives me the creeps. Can anybody link me to videos of demonstrations that they trust?

I'm at the end of my journey. In my 40s, never been pregnant. I have one euploid embryo, the only one we were able to create, and will be able to implant after my uterus is cleared of scar tissue. Thing is, this journey has worn me down. All of the certainty I had about wanting children "no matter the cost" has disappeared from me. I cannot access the feeling of desire. I feel numb.

I know I can choose to stop at any point, but i don't know how I wouldn't regret not even trying to implant this one embryo. I've been telling myself that the right choice for me is to let fate decide. If it didn't work, I can be at peace with a CF life and if it does work then I am banking on that joy and certainty to come back to me. But now I'm feeling like I don't even want to go through with trying. I'm afraid becoming pregnant would make me feel like my life is hurtling in the wrong direction. I'm also afraid of becoming pregnant, feeling all that hope, and then miscarrying at any week up until the very end like so many tragic stories I've read. I guess i'm afraid of going through any more of this process at all. I'm so. fucking. tired. of the procedures, and being a different person on hormones. Who even am I? Which "me" is making this decision?? I'm so confused. I'm so lost.

Additional info, once we discovered husband's infertility, we created this embryo via donor sperm. I still mourn the loss of not having my husband's genetic child, and the absolute fire i had about having this child via any means has died down. If I got pregnant, I'm expecting/hoping those feelings of absolute lack of doubt that every parent of donor children feels. But at this moment i'm feeling comfort in a CF future in the moment before any implantation has happened.

This is mostly me being frustrated and wanting to say these things i'm not supposed to say out loud... hoping to hear from anyone that has quit IVF while they still had options. Hoping to hear from anyone that may have felt their desire for children take an absolute 180 (and either stop there or go back to 360)

Trusted Derminator Product Videos???

My certainty went away, about to quit