u/Aggravating-Read5196

I used to weigh 98 kg, and over time I worked really hard and lost weight. I’m now 54 kg, and I was proud of myself.
The problem is my boyfriend keeps making comments about my weight.

He tells me things like, “Lose more weight, you’re fat,” “I don’t like fat girls,” or “I won’t marry you if you’re fat.” Sometimes he says I should be 50 kg or even 45 kg.

When I tell him those comments hurt me, he says it’s just a joke and that I get mad too easily.

The truth is, his comments have made me doubt myself. Even though I’ve lost so much weight, I still look in the mirror and feel like I’m not good enough.

I’ve started hating my body and worrying that I’ll never be enough for him.

Am I being too sensitive, or are these comments unhealthy? Has anyone else been in a relationship where “jokes” slowly damaged their confidence? I’d really appreciate honest opinions.

Last week I checked my boyfriend’s search history on social media, and there were no girls in it.
This week I checked again, and now there are multiple girls he has searched for and even sent friend/follow requests to.

When I confronted him, he said, “Those searches are from 4 years ago, before I started dating you.” But that doesn’t make sense to me. If they were really from 4 years ago, why weren’t they there when I checked last week? They only appeared this week.

Now he’s calling me toxic and saying I don’t trust him.
Am I being toxic, or is it reasonable to question this? Can old searches suddenly reappear on social media, or does this sound suspicious?