u/Aggravating-Try-5203

I'm feeling very scared about my options and would really like to hear from others in my position. I have about 15 years of professional experience in clinical research operations. I wanted to move to med affairs so I went to do my PhD (plus I have wanted to for so long). I'm submitting my thesis ​in August and started looking for jobs and I'm getting only rejections (or silence). I started applying for things I wanted and now I'm applying for things I was doing before (project manager) and... nothing. I was working part time in operations even last year, but now looking for full time it's not happening. I can't go back to the place I was because it was very very very very bad after major layoffs that left only the worst of the worst there. But even more I wonder if that will be my only option....

Starting to get scared that I won't find anything, will lose my house, not afford food etc.

I would just love to hear some comforting words or something idk.

Hi all - just looking for advice or maybe commiseration?

I have a little under 15 years experience in clinical research as a nurse and project manager with a hospital, CRO, startup and pharma company. I had CCRP certification for a few years but let it lapse about 8 years ago because I never really needed it. I also am not certified to work as a nurse anymore, and I'm not interested in going through re-certification for either.

My PhD is hopefully wrapping up this year and I've been very demoralized by the job search so far. I would ideally love medical affairs jobs (and I've worked as a medical advisor for a small non-profit before) but most of my experience is in operations so that's been where I'm focusing my efforts for now. I edited my CV to remove pretty much everything academia-focused (which included 100K in competitive funding I received, the many first author publications and talks I have, etc) to foreground my project management and... crickets.

ANY advice would be super welcome. I'm looking at CROs, pharma and hospital for August-September start.

I'd love to hear from other people who have gone through a serious breakup with no support network (no friends or family). I think my gf and I have reached the end of our 4 year relationship, and I'm so scared to just end it because I don't have anyone to lean on at all.

Can anyone give any advice? Thanks.