what can i do now
We had a date. She was already disturbed because her grandfather was admitted to the hospital. Still, I tried a lot to uplift her mood. We got physical, and while I was dropping her home, she got irritated and said, “Do you want to go somewhere with someone else?” because she was getting late. I told her, “I’ll leave from here, you go, you’re getting late.”
After I reached home, we didn’t talk much because I had to wake up early the next day to go somewhere. Later we had some normal conversation. I was very exhausted. At night we were talking on a call when her best friend called her. I asked, “Why is she calling at this time? What happened?” She said they had a fight. I said, “You’re telling me now?” She had first called her best friend to sort things out. I told her, “You could have called me once too, I was so exhausted.”
Then in anger I said, “You weren’t even worried about your grandfather. You just took out your irritation about your friend on me.” I was very tired and fell asleep. She had called me many times around 12 at night, but I woke up at 6 and told her I was sleeping because I was exhausted.
After that, we weren’t talking properly and were fighting. I apologized many times in between. In the end, we were on a call and I was talking in a casual tone. She felt that she was crying and I was laughing. I also said that her fight with her friend wasn’t that serious. After some time, she sent me this message (I have seen and noticed the way you spoke at the beginning of the call. I was literally in pain when I told you what hurt me, and you kept going “huh huh.” That was so disrespectful. Disrespecting someone when they are being vulnerable in front of you is such a horrible thing to do especially with your own girlfriend.
And after that, you even acted in a crying voice saying, “I’ll tell you later.” Is this a joke to you? I was crying while talking. I never even want to shed a tear in front of you, but because of your attitude and insensitive reaction while I was trying to explain my feelings, I ended up crying. And even then, you were behaving as if you had made no mistake. You were laughing at me, saying “huh huh,” making fun of me, and mocking me by acting. All of this is so messed up.
I have now seen that you can behave like this toward me when I am already facing so much in my life and sharing it with you and this is how you respond.
By doing this, you proved that the love I gave you had no value to you.
The way you showed yourself today made it very clear how much value I have in your life how much my tears, my feelings, my mental state, my soul, and my pain matter to you. Keep saying “huh huh” and keep making fun of it. Today I have seen your love. You have broken me.
My love was always pure and it will remain the same. There was never any lack in my love and there never will beNEVER. But my love has broken me.
I am breaking up with you.
After that, we talked on a call. I apologized and accepted my mistake. She said we should break up. At the end of the call, I said “I love you,” and she also said “I love you too.”
That night I asked how her grandfather was and whether she had eaten. She told me about her grandfather’s condition and said she hadn’t eaten. I told her to eat. She said okay and told me to eat too.
The next day in the evening, I directly messaged her asking how her grandfather was. She replied. After some time, I asked what she was doing. She replied after a while that she had just reached home. I told her to rest. She said she had to go drop her aunt. I told her to go carefully. She said okay. After that, I asked what she had eaten. She saw the message but didn’t reply. Then after some time, I sent another message saying, “Everything will be okay. You must be tired. Take care of yourself.