u/Aggressive_Bank4472

Problem/Goal: I never thought magiging loner ako sa new work ko. And it's really make me feel depressed. But Imagine your self working from 8-5 but your not talking with anyone asides in meeting.

Context: This is my 2nd Job na, and I never find it hard to make friends from my past companies(including mg 2 OJT companies). But in my recent work I'm so lonely, I'm new and I really feel excluded..Yes they ask me to have lunch with me out of pity kasi ako lang mag-isa. But it's really awkward when I'm eating with them, they are so quiet. I'm not so intimidating, they know it.

Previous Attempts: I'm trying to start a conversation but it's always shut down/ no one really trying to engage. When I'm not there, they are all so talkative and engaged with each other. And what really makes me feel this way is they don't ask me to go with them to buy coffee/meryenda. Like when they are passing me they are all just quiet. I don't know I really tried to have a bond with them but I don't know.

I know this post sound so pity but I feel so lonely. I feel like I'm gonna be crazy. Just sitting here 8-5, 5 days a week.

Well, I didn’t really decline. I just got home from the gym and found my parents figuring out how to send money to the province to help my grandma. They asked if I could contribute too, but honestly wala pa talaga ako sa sarili nung time na yun since kakauwi ko lang. Ang nasagot ko lang was, “Hindi ko naman close.”

I know it sounded bad, but I didn’t mean it in a disrespectful way. I’ve only met my grandma once during a family reunion, and we barely even talked. She’s been absent from my life ever since I was young, so I never really formed that emotional connection with her. I don’t feel that “lukso ng dugo” people talk about because, realistically, we were never close.

I also didn’t mean that I wouldn’t help at all. I’m just conflicted because part of me feels like it’s unfair na they were never really present in my life, tapos now expected akong ma-feel agad yung same level of concern everyone else feels. Plus, financially, wala rin talaga siya sa budget ko right now.

Tutulong naman ako if may extra, pero at the moment I’m honestly just confused about what I should be feeling.

So, ABYG?