I can't handle being at home. I just don't feel at ease. When I'm outside I'm completely fine. Outside I listen to music and watch people doing there things, it gives me peace of mind. I don't know what's going on with me that I can't be at home.
I have been feeling insecure for a bit. I always been insecure but now it's bothering me a lot. If I text to some people I don't want to be a bother and than I usually text something like; can you cal me if you have time, if you like to. I just feel if I type that that I sound insecure. I don't know if it is like that but I really want to know.
These days I also veel like an attention seeker. I don't know why. Maybe it is that i feel that i'm to much for everyone and that I use there kindness for granted. ( I want to be a background character or not even here..)
These few days I feel like I'm being over dramatic. There is a relationship is have and in need to wait for a answer. But if i talk with another people about it my situation my feelings will get the upper hand. Than I can't control my tears anymore. I think to myself than like; am I being over dramatic?
(He keeps talking to me and he helps me calm down, when I'm like that on the phone. But I feel like a burden to him because of my crying).
I want to stand better in my shoes but I don't know how. I want to be strong but with to much opinions of other people I can't handle it anymore. Than I will cry unfortunately 😓
I'm a bit tired of living ever Saturday for a few weeks a been down. When I have something to do I'm okay but if I don't have anything to do it just... I don't know. Sinds a few days I'm really overwhelmed by social media. I'm so tired of my life right now. Even when i want to be okay. What should I do. I feel so week. (There are some other things that are planning now that are also a bit of the problem). I just feel so lost.
I'm mentally exhausted of my fast lifestyle and things that I have to do for myself by force. Social media makes me really exhausted and I can't really go on social media because I get to overwhelmed by it. I do not really know what to do about my problem. These days I just feel a bit down again.
I don't know what to do. I want to SH but that not the answer. I have a bit of a different few days because I don't think I and my boyfriend are going to be together after this weekend. I'm going away with him for two nights. But he mentally can't hendel anything right now. Because of this I'm down in the dumps and I don't know what to do. The only thing I know for sure is that I will not do SH because it didn't help a few days ago. So now I will see how this two nights always will go. ( If I can't take it mentally I'll just go somewhere by myself or whatever).
I don't know what to do. I want to SH but that not the answer. I have a bit of a different few days because I don't think I and my boyfriend are going to be together after this weekend. I'm going away with him for two nights. But he mentally can't hendel anything right now. Because of this I'm down in the dumps and I don't know what to do. The only thing I know for sure is that I will not do SH because it didn't help a few days ago. So now I will see how this two nights always will go. ( If I can't take it mentally I'll just go somewhere by myself or whatever).
I can;t hold myself back anymore I need to SH myself. I can't help it, I can't handel my shit. SH been on my mind for over three days..
I'm going insane. Mine emotions are going all over the place. I can't talk to someone. I just want to selfharm in anyway I can think of. I'm not going to do it, but i want it so badly. ( I want to bang my head against te wall to shut my head up from talking to me).
sometimes i want to hurt myself because i don't know what to do with my emotions. But the thing is that i want to stay clean of selfharm for myself but also for the people around me. I don't know what to do. (not too long ago i got a relationship with my cute boy friend but he doen't know i selfharm some times). I don't know what to do about al of this shit.