u/Ahnedonia-

So I just finished up Uni and it’s been good, made some cool friends. In the beginning of this first semester I had a fat crush on this one girl, and skip we went out and throughout the short span of the relationship I was getting a lot of encouragement from one of my friends. This friend had been one I hadn’t been super close too but they were really cool, like we enjoy the same music and have the same kind of humor. Skip forward till a month towards college is out and I get dumped, no big deal I’m really good at letting go and I start making plans to better myself cause I realized I needed a lot of mental help. This is all just some precursor but after my breakup I’ve been getting really close with this friend and I’m just helplessly stuck thinking about her. When we hung out before she went back home for the summer it was always so much fun, we’d make the same joke over and over again and annoy our other friends. We’d be hanging in a group and she’d send me a text making a joke, her laugh is really cute, she is so talented at art and wants to do music too. We’ve been in like a play fighting friendship way for a minute threatening to move each other down the friendship ranking. But recently I have realized my crush on her because I wanna know her on a deep personal level. I’ve been back and forth on it but she texted me today after a bit because I don’t reach out because I don’t know what to say, but she said “ I miss hanging out with you and everyone else” and she asks me about all these things I have planned. She makes me feel seen in so many ways, and genuinely cares about everyone and it’s so amazing. I don’t know if I should present the idea of going out for a coffee over the summer so if it’s not reciprocated we can move past it, but either way I still want her to be in my life. I just don’t know if I should jeopardize what I have, and I could ask our mutual friend to but that’s also risky. Anything helps right now

I’ve recently finished up my first year at Uni and it’s been okay, I’ve gotten dumped a bit ago(a month or so) but during that relationship I was kind of getting coached and advice from one of my other friends who I’ve been getting really close too. During the relationship and even after I’ve been getting really close with this friend. We’ve hung out a lot especially in our group setting and she’s really sweet and nice, like she’s so thoughtful and caring. We’ll be sitting in a group setting and she’ll like text me one of our inside things and it’s so funny to me, our third friend also refers to us as brain rotted and we argue who’s worse. She’s also so stunning, like it never really occurred to me, I was drinking at a friend’s place and I couldn’t help but miss her. I still like do miss her but I can’t bring myself to text her but we have plans to game together over the summer which I’m looking forward too. She also like replies to what songs I put on ig and it’s just heart aching. I know it’s not gonna happen but it still tugs at my mind wondering about her and I see her videos on TikTok and it’s just like “man I hate feeling like this because I know if I say anything it’ll ruin our connection and I’ll lose her”. I have more and more to say but I wanna keep it a little vague just in case, but also she was helping dry off my hair one time and I really enjoyed when she was messing with it like it was just weird. She also remembered my issues with eating and recommended smoothies and just paid attention to it, I’m thinking about it now more than ever. I don’t wanna make it awkward but I feel terrible thinking this way, it’s just miserable.

I’ve recently finished up my first year at Uni and it’s been okay, I’ve gotten dumped a bit ago(a month or so) but during that relationship I was kind of getting coached and advice from one of my other friends who I’ve been getting really close too. During the relationship and even after I’ve been getting really close with this friend. We’ve hung out a lot especially in our group setting and she’s really sweet and nice, like she’s so thoughtful and caring. We’ll be sitting in a group setting and she’ll like text me one of our inside things and it’s so funny to me, our third friend also refers to us as brain rotted and we argue who’s worse. She’s also so stunning, like it never really occurred to me, I was drinking at a friend’s place and I couldn’t help but miss her. I still like do miss her but I can’t bring myself to text her but we have plans to game together over the summer which I’m looking forward too. She also like replies to what songs I put on ig and it’s just heart aching. I know it’s not gonna happen but it still tugs at my mind wondering about her and I see her videos on TikTok and it’s just like “man I hate feeling like this because I know if I say anything it’ll ruin our connection and I’ll lose her”. I have more and more to say but I wanna keep it a little vague just in case, but also she was helping dry off my hair one time and I really enjoyed when she was messing with it like it was just weird.