u/Akirex5000

I've been researching this for the past week and turning it around and around in my head without actually getting into an answer. I feel pretty confident in being a type 548, likely 5w4 4w5 8w9. I was initially unsure because i did have a lot of 9-ish tendencies. I can be diplomatic and accommodating with people, oftentimes when I'm faced with something that I perceive as threatening I tend to withdraw and not interact with it, I make excuses to frame it as "strategic retreat" but it doesn't stop me from feeling angry at myself and at the threat, essentially viewing myself as a coward who was too weak to do anything.

I like being in control, or at the very least feeling like I'm in control. When I feel I'm in my element I can be extremely confrontative and aggressive, oftentimes when I'm being protective of others I come across as much more demanding and straightforward. It's weird being a 5w4 with an 8 fix, because 5 and 4 are inherently withdrawn and very internal, while 8 is a very externalizing type. Oftentimes I feel the need to externalize anger or opinions and I feel angry at myself when I don't, even when the 5 in me deems it illogical or not worth it or the 4 recognizes that this is another person with their own point of view.

I'm not so much looking for advice or trying to get others to type me as I am just getting this out and seeing what others think, or if anyone has any additional resources to research this it would be pretty helpful. I can't really get all of my thoughts out in one post anyway but I can go deeper into this. I don't know much yet about the instinctual variants but I'm pretty sure I'm an SP5, though I will research more about it.