u/Alarming-Option-5959

It’s almost been a year and half since I’ve lost my first born son. I haven’t posted on here in awhile but I still read most of the posts.

Firstly, my heart is out to all the mothers, fathers and family that have recently lost their sweet baby. I wish I could hug every one of you as I remember that huge feeling of grief wash over every part of your life. The first few weeks for me were a blur. Once life settled back down and it was just my husband,daughter and me - it hit me hard. If it wasn’t for my daughter and family, I really truly don’t know if I’d be here today. A part of my soul died the day I lost my son. He was 3 months old when he passed.

I wish I could give anyone in the trenches of grief all of the answers but for me it was time. I cried, screamed. Asked god why… why me? Why my son? My husband and I haven’t had an easy life and we’re trauma bonded before our loss.

In the beginning the only place I could find peace was at the cemetery where my son is buried. I would visit almost everyday and just talk to him. I slowly started to go to church, go out with my family just to get out of the house and finally started to smile again. Life finally started to get a bit easier.

5 months after our loss, I became pregnant again. That came with the its own worries and rollercoaster of emotions. At exactly 7 months to the date of my son’s passing we found out it was a boy. My husband and I just cried. Tears of joy and sorrow of what could be and for what could have been. My second son was born in January and just passed his 3 months old milestone. I see so much of my first son in him, their little personalities and how they could have been twins.

Anyway not sure of where I was going with all of this but life can bring a miracle into your life and it can change in an instant. I’ve learned to love every moment I have here. With myself, my family and now my baby boy.

I hope all of you here, new and old, can find some sort of peace and happiness in this awful journey. My advice is to feel every emotion you go through. Slowly time will heal. Even though the whole in your heart will always be there, you learn to live again. My heart is with you all❤️

I’m a new seller, I sell mostly children’s books but toys and such as well. How do you do a max shipping or a bundle deal for people if they order multiple things? I cannot figure it out.

Thank you❤️