I normally order my things right on the first as I have a baby and rely on getting diapers and wipes. It’s always been $50 a month. I just logged in and it’s saying they changed it from $50 to $25 a month. One pack of diapers is $15. Wtf is there any reason for this? Anyone else notice this?
The hardest thing nobody told me after losing my baby is how incredibly lonely grief can be.
Not just the kind of loneliness that comes from missing your child, but the loneliness of carrying a love so big that most people around you can’t fully understand it.
You spend your days trying to fill a void that can never truly be filled. You want to talk about your baby, say their name, share their story, but sometimes it feels like the world has moved on while you’re still carrying them with every breath.
Some days you find yourself pretending you’re okay just to make other people feel more comfortable. You smile when you’re breaking. You say you’re doing better when you’re barely keeping your head above water.
And if you’re a loss mom with other children, there can be another layer of guilt and heartbreak. You’re grieving one child while trying to be present for the ones still here. You’re making meals, folding laundry, reading bedtime stories, showing up for your family, all while carrying a pain that never leaves your side. Some days it feels impossible to hold both grief and motherhood in the same hands.
It’s especially isolating when you’ve lived through something that no parent should ever have to experience, and no one around you truly understands the weight of it. So you sit alone with your thoughts, asking the same questions over and over:
Why my baby?
Why me?
Why did God allow this?
Grief has a way of making you feel forgotten. It can make you feel like you’re drowning while the rest of the world keeps moving forward.
If you’re a loss mom reading this, I want you to know that I see you. I see the love you still carry for your baby. I see the tears you cry when no one is looking. I see the strength it takes to care for your family while your own heart feels shattered. I see the way you keep going, even on the days you don’t know how.
You don’t have to pretend here. You don’t have to make your grief smaller for anyone else’s comfort.
Your baby matters.
Their life matters.
And your motherhood didn’t end when they left this earth.
You’re still their mama🤍
It’s almost been a year and half since I’ve lost my first born son. I haven’t posted on here in awhile but I still read most of the posts.
Firstly, my heart is out to all the mothers, fathers and family that have recently lost their sweet baby. I wish I could hug every one of you as I remember that huge feeling of grief wash over every part of your life. The first few weeks for me were a blur. Once life settled back down and it was just my husband,daughter and me - it hit me hard. If it wasn’t for my daughter and family, I really truly don’t know if I’d be here today. A part of my soul died the day I lost my son. He was 3 months old when he passed.
I wish I could give anyone in the trenches of grief all of the answers but for me it was time. I cried, screamed. Asked god why… why me? Why my son? My husband and I haven’t had an easy life and we’re trauma bonded before our loss.
In the beginning the only place I could find peace was at the cemetery where my son is buried. I would visit almost everyday and just talk to him. I slowly started to go to church, go out with my family just to get out of the house and finally started to smile again. Life finally started to get a bit easier.
5 months after our loss, I became pregnant again. That came with the its own worries and rollercoaster of emotions. At exactly 7 months to the date of my son’s passing we found out it was a boy. My husband and I just cried. Tears of joy and sorrow of what could be and for what could have been. My second son was born in January and just passed his 3 months old milestone. I see so much of my first son in him, their little personalities and how they could have been twins.
Anyway not sure of where I was going with all of this but life can bring a miracle into your life and it can change in an instant. I’ve learned to love every moment I have here. With myself, my family and now my baby boy.
I hope all of you here, new and old, can find some sort of peace and happiness in this awful journey. My advice is to feel every emotion you go through. Slowly time will heal. Even though the whole in your heart will always be there, you learn to live again. My heart is with you all❤️
I’m a new seller, I sell mostly children’s books but toys and such as well. How do you do a max shipping or a bundle deal for people if they order multiple things? I cannot figure it out.
Thank you❤️