u/Ambitious_Tooth6624

Let me start by saying this: I’m not gay. I’ve never been into men or found them remotely attractive. But if I’m honest, I haven’t exactly felt that way about women either. I’ve just gone through the motions because, well, society. I can get hard when needed and make sure the girls have a good time, but truthfully? It feels like a chore. I don’t enjoy it except for the climax and maybe a little of the power play.

Now, my superior. I won’t get into the details, but let’s just say we didn’t exactly hit it off at first. I hated him on sight. Yet, for some reason, I can’t get him out of my head.

He’s the only man I’ve ever found attractive, and it’s driving me out of my mind. I can’t stand him as a person, but every time he’s near, I get this primal urge to push back, to defy him. And, of course, He seems to enjoy seeing how far he can get under my skin. The whole dynamic is annoying.

I’ll admit it, the oral sex was good. He has this way of blending pain with pleasure, and as much as I hate to confess it, I liked it. It gave me some of the most best.. orgasms of my life. But here: I hate the thought of another man fucking me. It’s just something I can’t wrap my head around.

And yet when the tables turned and I had the chance to fuck him, I froze. Couldn’t do it. He says I like to be dominated, and that cut deep because I thought I was the one calling the shots.

Now, he’s ghosted me. Part of me is relieved, but the other part? Frustrated. He claimed he wasn’t into men either, but I don’t know if I buy that. especially since he always seems ready to…well, you get the picture??

So what’s happening here? Is this just some weird one-time thing, or am I heading for the mother of all sexuality crises? /gen

hii! i'm just experimenting since i'm not 100% sure if i’m trans yet. so, if anyone could use callan with he/him pronouns in a sentence or something, anything works. thank youu!

So, I want to be a man, but not in a trans way. Like, I don't want to medically transition. I just wish I was born a man. I'm forever mourning who I could've been, yk, if I was a guy. I don't know if this is like trans in denial or whatever, but I don't think I am because I'm fine with being a girl. I just wish I had the choice to have a male anatomy instead??? I don’t really know, I’m confused af

this is gonna sound kind of stupid but i’ve been noticing patterns in how i act? on the outside everything about me is fine i do well in school, people trust me, i don’t really get in trouble, i can get along with pretty much anyone if I need to. i know how to act depending on the situation so it’s not hard to keep that up. but there’s other stuff i don’t really talk about. like i lie about small things sometimes for no real reason, just because it’s easier or because i can. i’ll say what people want to hear even if i don’t mean it at all. i don’t really think about it, it just happens. i also notice i don’t react to things the way other people do. like if something happens that should probably bother me, i just dont care, i kind of move on straight away. same with other people if someone’s upset or something i know how i’m supposed to respond, but it feels more like following a script than actually feeling it. sometimes i’ll do things just to see what happens, even if there’s no real reason to. not anything huge, just small stuff that changes how a situation plays out. then i just do it, for fun. i also get bored really easily, especially with people, and when that happens i just switch off. like i can go from acting completely normal with someone to not really caring about them at all and it doesn’t feel like a big deal to me. so, i don’t know if this is just how some people are or if there’s actually something off about the way i am, lol? idk anymore, hope this makes sense

why do i highkey really want to kiss my rival but i hate him a lottt and want to choke him A LOT. but im not even gay or whatever???