u/Animallover113

I’m just numb to it all at this point. It’s been 7 months and it’s been hell, everyday is a struggle and I never know how I’m gonna feel. I was so unhappy with you but watching you let go us and walking away from me like I meant nothing killed me. I’m used to it though, people always leave, people always do me wrong, that’s just how it goes. I’m lonely; I live in this town because of you and have no one here. I don’t go anywhere but work, I have no friends, I have nothing here. I barely see my family. But lucky you, you have your parents and your family and always are surrounded with love. I don’t know why I’m mourning a relationship that never existed but I’m just numb to it at this point. Got so bad into drinking I thought I was gonna kill myself. You have no remorse and could care less for anything I ever sacrificed for you, I gave up so much for you, you have no remorse for how you treated me. You wasted my time, my love, I gave you every piece of me time and time again to be left with nothing. I’ve never hated someone yet loved them so much and I couldn’t tell you why because I hate who you truly are but I love this idea of what you could’ve been if you just cared and wanted it. I sound so pathetic. You’ve proved to me I mean nothing to you, so from here on out I’m gonna give you your space and try and move on with my life. You ruined me.

Had to pay a larger then expected deductible for insurance and put me way off budget. Just need gas to get through the week! Will be good when I get paid Friday to repay :)

Unfortunately she had the kittens before the foster could answer and now it’s too stressful to move her and she’s all i know but this is a huge unexpected expense. Someone mentioned to make a go fund me for her medical expenses as she’s an outside or dumped cat who I don’t think had ever had medical attention. My question is, if i started a fund raiser for her medical expenses how much would cover a full exam and all the testing and needs of an outside / stray cat. Due to her not drinking water im starting to worry this is urgent yet I don’t know what’s appropriate to ask? My cats have always had proper medical care that isn’t gonna be of much as a work up this will be. I have an agency who will spay her once kittens are gone but she and the kittens should be evaluated right? Sorry I’ve never done this before but some advice would be helpful. It’s hard to find an organization that is willing to do vet care. Go fund me would be the option but not sure what kind of expenses I’ll face.