u/Ann997

Anyone else grew up without grandparents?

I read that quite a few people in this sub have older parents. So who also did grow up without grandparents? The parents from my father's side were already old when I was born. I don't remember much about my grandpa, just that I didn't understand him for some reason and that he was always grumpy. I was even kind of scared of him. My mom told me later on that he had dementia. I didn't even realise when he died. I was only 3 (almost 4). My grandma died about one and a half years later, I just remember that she didn't talk much and seemed very serious. I was at her house quite often, but I didn't talk much with her and I mainly just ate some food and watched TV. My mother's father was already long dead when I was born and her mother unfortunately already died when I was 7. She wasn't as old as my grandparents from my father's side, but she already died in her 70s. I honestly didn't have a strong bond to her either. She was in a wheelchair and my mother and I visited her sometimes, but that was actually it. When she died, I didn't recognise what this would mean for me. I was just empathetic for my mother and my aunts, because I knew it must be hard to lose your mom. It wasn't until I was like 9 years old, until I realized, what it actually means not to have grandparents. When I saw other kids having bonds with their grandma and grandpa, I started feeling really bad. I was especially jealous of kids who had young grandparents that would travel with them, be happy and loving towards them. I never had that, even when my grandparents were still alive. Nowadays grandparents are always represented in media and you will feel like the weird odd one out, if you don't get spoiled emotionally and materially by your grandparents. It just sucks. Now that I'm 29, I really feel that I missed out on a lot.

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u/Ann997 — 4 days ago

Anyone else feeling scared and lonely as an only child?

As I kid I always wanted a sibling, but my mum was already 36 when I was born, and when I asked her many times for a sibling as a 4 year until 7 year old, she constantly told me no. I've always been sad about not having a sibling, but it got worse when I became an adult. Since my dad is already 70 and my mum 64, I am more and more scared of them becoming ill or even dying. If you have siblings, you aren't alone in this. If anything happens, they will grief with you, they will help you organising everything etc. but I'm scared like crazy because I'm on my own. Not only that but if my parents are gone, I'm alone as well. I have a boyfriend yes, but you never know if a relationship lasts. It's different with siblings. You don't have to proof anything, you don't have to be cool or interesting or entertaining, they will just be there. Friends can lose interest in you as well. Does anyone relate?

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u/Ann997 — 12 days ago
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Bad luck+depressed after Reiki

Hi everyone! I've been listening to Reiki healers on YouTube for a few days now. In the beginning I felt great, energetic, more confident, a lot less depressed and anxious. But since two days, it's the opposite. I feel tired and depressed and also things seem to go wrong, alias bad luck is happening, so I focused on listening to Reiki to remove bad luck, but it's still the same. Is this like a purge or something and will it get better?

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u/Ann997 — 22 days ago