Struggling coming to terms (vent-ish)
I have been diagnosed as Bipolar by my therapist and am currently waiting to go in for farther testing on that. I am 19 and I feel like these symptoms almost came out of nowhere and like I am out of control in my body sometimes especially in the past months its gotten hellish. For a while it took both my mom and therapist trying to make me understand it because I've been in denial and though I realized I am through talking with her I still feel on edge of it.
I feel so out of control because I dont fully understand these episodes I have and I feel so much shame because I've done some dumb shit that doesn't feel like me. I feel broken because of this and still a little put off by it. I honestly am just coming on here because for anyone who's lived with this I just need to know does it ever get easier at all to handle?? because I feel like I have been emotionally hit in both the ankles with a scooter.