Mother's day, but not for me
I have a small family of 3, a 15 yr old son and a narcissist husband. Mother's day was never an issue when my kid was small and anyway husband was never there.
Well, we don't go out much together, no dinners, no long drives, never an outing. We are always going out seperately with the kid.
For the last couple of years, I have been longing for recognition, maybe because my kid has grown up now and that I expected that he would have had some gratitude and pamper me like I do with my parents. My family is ptsdly disfunctional but I love and respect my parents.
My husband doesn't care. He celebrates his mom but nothing for me.
Last year, during the mother's day lunch, my niece, 10 and my nephew 11 bought me some flowers and cool mug with a teddy etc. No counter reation from my son though.
I am very dissappointed with my kid, for many reasons, this is one of them, the one I raised almost single handedly while my husband was never home. New job, had to prove himself. While I left my career because I needed to take care of my child, he needed me. Now, I feel like a looser.
I think that my kid is becoming like his dad.
And there's that feeling of sadness, heartbreak and disappointment and this longing gor recognition that's killing me slowly...
And I hope to get used to that too.