u/Annual_Contract_6803

As the title says my PT was fixed but a year later I'm disruptively busy, have some cognitive fog, and I'm always exhausted. It's been very very annoying. Has anyone else had this happen? If so, does it go away?

I have had follow-ups to check absolutely everything and nobody can find anything, which is good mostly. I don't want anything to be wrong, but do want to know why I have half my energy, brain farts, and bad baance. If it's never going away , how to manage it? Instead of getting any answers even if those answers are that they don't really know, I am being responded to as though I'm crazy or have unmanaged health anxiety. TBH, I just want to know what's going on and how to manage it and I would rather be at literally any other place than the doctor's office asking.

As the title says, I've been looking for work for 6 months in San Francisco. I've tapped all of my resources like 401k, limited savings, sold things not that I have that much to sell, tried things like online surveys or AI annotation work, looked for things like surveys or one day work here and there. I've tried every hustle I am capable of hustling and am currently utilizing city services which I'm not sure I can depend on and I keep getting second place on multiple round interviews. My confidence is fine my faith in humanity is lit on fire right now. What should I do differently then continue trying? I'm afraid I will lose my housing and everything I own and my credit will tank (which it's already tanking) thanks to the paralyzing fear and/or abject indecision of every employer out there needing 6 interviews for the equivalent of a 6 month contract job. 🫥 For context, I'm a senior executive assistant with 10 years of experience in the tech sector with good history, good experience, good attitude despite the past 6 months, and like what I do mostly.

I know that there are times when you're just not meant to be somewhere and that's a normal part of life. It seems like every single group I've tried to be even a loose part of old deliberately leaves me out. If a scapegoat is needed socially it's always me. I don't do anything in particular that attempts to rub people the wrong way, am friendly but not too friendly... and try to be super considerate / easy to be around. It doesn't seem to matter. Recently some folks that I thought were pretty good friends deliberately left me out of something very important and it alerted me to a pattern. Every time I think I belong, I don't. I never do. Does anyone else relate to this? Is it in AuDHD thing to always be left out whether you have a good personality or not? If you have the audacity and desire to show up, is it normal to always be the social scapegoat? Will somebody will always have a hair up their (___|___) about something you didn't even do? I didn't do anything wrong but I'm always left out and I know I'm not important enough to be hated, but it seems like people go out of their way to not include me and to find anything about me not to like. It's kind of a bummer.

I am $38,000 in debt. I have not worked in 5 months I have used as much as my 401k as I can. I've taken out a tiny loan. I do not qualify for unemployment insurance or SDI. The large part of that debt is a consolidation loan where $13,800 remains at 12%, and a credit card with $8,800 left and a high APR at 23%. Those last two are killing me. While I am doing well in interviews I don't have anything to show for it yet and literally have no income. I have no savings left. Would it be worse to go to a debt consolidation company or miss payments on those two large items?

As part of my research today I logged into every single account to see what kind of help they had and if you look on Capital One's website, they have a savage couple of advice articles telling readers to use severance and unemployment insurance pay to pay minimums on their credit cards. I called to see if there was any way they could come up with a lesser payment plan or deferment and the only thing that Capital One will actually do is defer your interest for a month and only for one time. Wow. 🤔☠️