Minimalism + anxiety (advice wanted)
Hi, I made a burner account to post a few things and Reddit could not have been more prophetic with my assigned name :')
I'd like a little advice. Without going into too much personal details, I've realised owning too many things sends my head west. I'm somebody who's prone to anxiety and when it's spiking, my instant default is: "I must get rid of everything".
I pursued a minimalist lifestyle which, for the most part, has helped as my free time is also minimal given long work hours, but my problem is, I'm now constantly at odds with whether I want to keep something or sell/donate, that I'm almost afraid of buying anything new. I have low energy hobbies, and I'm always going through phases of whether I want to buy things related to those hobbies and sometimes do buy - to inevitably have a moment of panic and revert back to what I currently have. I got into a habit of wanting to find *the* special thing, y'know? being mindful about my purchases, spending a little more to get something of high quality than I'll love and will last for a long time.
But, is wanting everything to be special causing this internal drama?! When I buy myself something new, I love it until I don't. The buy/sell/yearning/buy/love/stress/sell cycle continues. I'm exhausting myself with it, it's laughable.
Does anybody else have this same thing going on, or similar? I've lurked this subreddit for the longest time and now I'm finally brave enough to post (though not so brave as to make a proper account!)