Guy who comes into my work all the time, hoping for a friend but feels impossible
Just needed a place to rant
I’m mid 20’s M, and There’s this guy that’s been coming into my work for the past year, at first it was a simple question about where to do a return, there was a bit of a lingering stare after that had me guessing, but I didn’t think too much of it; he had a insanely cool beard I’ve always wanted to comment on but hesitated to
Then he kept coming in, and we kept crossing paths, each time at first we ended up making eye contact, and while at first I didn’t think much of him, after seeing him a few times and making small talk I ended up finding him very attractive- usually I would try and take him on register or give him a simple smile, some small talk - but after the first month or two back in September/october it felt like it ended up becoming nothing
He’d come in here and there, and it always felt like there was a visible tension between us. In the last few months he was coming in more frequently so one time I tried to give him a little wave since he I was honestly hoping I could get to know him, and break that tension; which he also responded with a little wave and smile in exchange - ever since we’d always make small exchanges a few times while he’s in, he almost always went out his way to wave to me first the moment we saw each other, and say Hi or ask me how my day was, and i honestly really enjoyed it, to the point that it was kind of a focal point of my day seeing him… at that point I was very into him and finally built the courage to ask for him name, I was scared to ask for anything more or give him my contact since I didn’t want to make him uncomfortable - but it was nice finally being able to put a name to him and not have it be as awkward when talking to him. He’d had a very deep voice but always had a much softer fluctuation in his voice when talking to me
Fast forward a few weeks later, he comes in and is walking towards me and starts waving when I see him, then I noticed he had a newborn with him, I was a bit mortified in the moment, I talked to him a few times while he was in and apparently he was off of work for a bit and that was why he was coming in more - I say farewell with probably a sad look and smile since I had genuinely been hoping he was single or something would come out of it
Didn’t see him for about two weeks until he came in again, I caught up and asked him how it was being back to work and let him know it was nice seeing him, at this point I genuinely would want a friend, but it feels like we live in such different worlds it doesn’t feel possible
I’ll go out of my way to say Hi occasionally when he’s in, or a wave but it feels like he’s stopped waving first/doesn’t really look at me anymore. It’s honestly a bit defeating, since I’m not trying to be a homewrecker, but again I would genuinely love to be this man’s friend, I’m just not sure how to even proceed