u/Anxious_and_Messy21

I am 7.5 months postpartum and have been trying to get into PT since my 6 week appointment, I’ve called multiple places they’ve referred me to and no one gets back to me or picks up the phone. I had a second degree tear and I can still feel where I tore as it is sore in that area everyday. I am unable to have intercourse with my husband. Nothing can even enter there. I had a Pap smear done recently and she sent me to the moon when that speculum went in. I feel it’s gotten worse. I’ve had issues before a baby and pt helped, but I also had different insurance at that time too. Could I just YouTube videos or are there specifics that I would have to do and workout?

My boy is 7 months. He has always been a temperamental baby and has always slept terribly, no matter what I did, as a newborn he had colic very bad. But I’ve tried everything, literally everything. Very rare does he actually sleep good and when he does I know I’m in for a terrible sleep the rest of the time like usual. He’s always restless, constant moving, he’s up and sometimes stays up which has been more common recently. Doctor said he may just be a restless sleeper. Literally dropping a needle in a hay stack would wake him up. He also seems more attached at the hip to me as well. Normally he can play with his toys for like 5 minutes while I put away laundry or something small, but the last few days he has not been interested in his toys or anything. He also launches himself at me 24/7. If I even move an inch away from him he loses his mind. I don’t have a lot of help, my husband works 12hr shifts 7p-7a and goes to school right after that from 8a-12p, does some side jobs after that sometimes and has very little sleep just to do it again the next day, school ends this week and he’s also quitting his job so he will be more available which will be good, he does help when he can, my in laws don’t like my baby because of his temperament and high needs, my mom is far away and has health problems, my sister works almost everyday but takes him when she’s off if she’s able to. I understand he can be frustrating and doesn’t like to be put down but his family wanted a grandchild so bad and now want nothing to do with him. I’m very anti screen, but I was at my wits end today that I decided to put the tv together because I wasn’t able to do anything which is normal for me but this was more than normal, I was crying and ofc he didn’t sleep well last night because it was thundering so he was awake most of the night, the tv needed a password to work and I didn’t know it. So that was a fail which I guess is fine. It was a very rough morning and I feel terrible for wanting him to watch like 20 minutes of something low stimulating but sometimes I just need a break because I rarely get it and I also sobbed for thinking I’m gonna ruin my kid because of it and I’m going against what I said. I’m afraid I’m gonna ruin his brain. My niece is a major iPad screen kid, constantly has a phone or tablet or something on tv, she has many behavioral issues and watches a lot of brain rot shows ever since she was born basically and it scares me that if I let him watch something small on the tv he’ll be the same way. He also seems to have so much energy and idk how to make him expel it since he can’t crawl or walk yet ofc. He’s starting to want to crawl. But idek what to do anymore, nothing works, I’m aware his temperament is probably just his personality but his sleep omg. I’ve tried baths at night, a full bottle, mylicon, different clothing, different temperatures, bassinet, co sleeping, nightlight, dark room, quiet time before bed, books, and I could name a thousand other things I’ve tried. I feel like everyone I know has had I guess the term is unicorn babies where they are perfect at everything. People keep making me think that my baby is broken or something is wrong with him. He’s a happy baby for the most part so idk.