Just need help/clarification
So where can I start. I am 22 year old and met this girl I was 20 she was close to 19 and we fell in love. Then she got pregnant. She told me she took contraceptive but yeah that didn't do nothing. So I asked her to abort the child and I'll give you more later just please abort it. Since I told her she literally became someone else. Like she was toxic disrespectful insulting me saying during pregnancy the baby is not mine just to hurt me sayin it will never work out to leave her alone. And I tried continuing talking to her because I was saying she is crazy because of the pregnancy hormones. Until one day I saw a guy texting her and she took her phone and immediately snatched it and deleted the convo. I was suspecting something and guess what she was crying and then slapped me because she was pushing me and I tried holding her wrist to stop like pushing me and told her '' we just need to talk no need to be this emotional ''. She slapped me hard 2x and it wasn't painful I just heard a buzz at my ear and told myself yeah it's dead I need to get out of her house before something bad will happen. Long story short I made a vacation out of my country because I wanted to decompress and she learnt about it ad starting to talk to other guys random people saying she can't go to party because I got her pregnant. Unfortunately I crashed out and was so traumatized about it so I blocked her everywhere. I came back to my country after 1 month and she threatened me with child support yelled at me saying I am a POS her mom was saying racist things to me (I didn't care I was just disappointed a mom was saying that) and then I was done done. I blocked her and her family. then months went by her brother txted me than she continued adding guys and her ex.
Then one day she gave birth without me like I didn't even know. So my cousin and friend told her to let me see the child once at first she didn't want to but after she contcted me by number and at first it was nice we talked about the problem why we were jealous and everything. But then she told me ''what are we'' with a huge smile and told her we are just parents and asked her for a dna test. She cried and told me she did everything alone (mind you everyday I asked her what she needed but she was always hiding things to me insulting me disrespected me). So then the next day she told me it's not going to work out I begged like a dog to see a picture of the child and she gave me 1. So I was like you know what I'll leave her alone. 2 weeks later she texts me sayin you don't love ur own child and I was just like this girl is crazy. And again I was recomforting her but this time I told her I love her and everything just to see the child and she finally sended me some pictures videos for like 2 weeks and then she send me some messages and sends me nude ???? like wtf take care of the child.
So I took a initiative and bought some clothes for the child and left her at the doorknob because I remember her mom threatening me with the police and my baby momma saying she misses my body and mind you at this point I didn't saw her for like 7-8 months physically so idk if she hooked up with someone else and with my eyes rn she is just disgusting for real. So then she got the clothes told me a cold thank you and restarted the cycle of accusing me or creating problem for no reason being difficult for no reason and told me you want a dna test go to court. I want our daughter to have sibling just not with you I am done with you forever and then she deleted me.
Now it's been like 5-6 month I have completely didn't talk to her she still talk to so many other dudes before that was hurting me a lot but right now Idk what should I expect with someone like her. Post thirst trap everywhere post the child everywhere but me na 0 pictures nothing like she moved on so fast and erased me and she doesn't know but I am not anymore in the same country because I had a scholarship elsewhere sooo yeah and right now she is just blocked everywhere. And I am like this close to giving up because I am young in another country much better than were I was from people like me there idk man.
So yeah idk if she will contact me idk if i will see my daughter like I have screenshots of her saying I should have aborted or I will have no right get out of my and MY daughters life. But her the screenshots she has from me is Thank you for making me a father I am ready to leave all this behind I love you. Sooo yeah what do y'all think
(English is not my first language so sorry for the mistakes)
(Sorry if it's also long it's just sometimes I just can't sleep or can't continue with my days I got threated so badly and that's what I remember and also some things I dont say sooo yeah)