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Happened earlier today. My heart is shattered.

Yep, pretty much what the title says. Been almost 2 months and I still feel like shit. I will add that I only pieced the timeline of events after the fact. She framed it like she wanted to break things off with me before going back to him and acted like she was doing the right thing when I told her how fucked up it was. Turns out she was definitely seeing him again before dumping me, god knows how long for.

I feel like such a sad, pathetic, worthless loser. I still yearn for her, despite all this, even knowing she’s not a good person and did the worst thing imaginable. It’s humiliating, knowing she’s back with him. I’m already forgotten about, the discarded trash.

She probably hasn’t thought once about me, not like it matters but it adds to my feelings of worthlessness. I’ve been destroyed by this and she couldn’t care less.

Now my fear of loneliness is at an all time high, paired with a new host of trust issues. It’s a disaster, I feel hopeless. I’ve always struggled to form connections with women so I don’t know when or if I’ll ever form another connection again. So am I doomed to be tortured by the actions of this girl indefinitely? It feels that way.

I’m sorry, I guess I’m just venting. I couldn’t imagine saying all this to a family member or friend but strangers on the internet is fine I guess. Idk lol.

I hope time helps to heal this because right now it’s mental torture.