I bind most days, work out regularly, wear baggier clothes, yet I’m always she her-ed. I’m pre everything (can’t get access to HRT because of family). I was told to grow my hair out a bit already. I know this shirt is too long; I usually wear shirts that match my torso length, this day was a fluke. What else can I do?
Hi all. I’m really struggling. Ive been hoping to lose a little weight, since I’ve crept into overweight BMI territory.
I’ve been working out for 5 years. I have a history of ED, binge and anorexia. I’m really trying to overcome it, but I still have a hard time with overeating at night. I’ve tried it all— not buying it, ignoring cues, busying myself, and the food noise is way too loud. If I don’t buy binge food, I’ll eat uncooked oats instead. Genuinely.
I used to be UW, then gained a ton in “recovery”, then lost about 2/3 of that in an attempt to get my life back. I never did it without disordered techniques, though.
I do a lot of cardio. Like, too much. I have for years. I can’t tell people how much because they look at me like I’m crazy. The cardio makes me exhausted, so that lifting is very tiring. But I’m so scared that if I stop, I’ll gain way more weight.
Nobody in my life cares anymore. They only cared about my health when I was underweight. I’m far worse mentally than I ever was when I was visibly struggling. There are days when all I can think about is my body. I’m trans (ftm, pre-t, can’t come out due to family) too, so you can imagine how those thoughts are.
I’m not even making progress on my lifts, and I’m gaining weight slowly, despite not eating throughout the day. I tried to reintroduce breakfast, but now I just binge first thing in the morning. I feel so disgusted and ashamed of myself. I eat protein, fiber, I drink water, I use way too much caffeine, all the tricks. It’s not working. I’m gaining weight. My pants are tight. I hate this body and I hate that I can’t control myself.
I’m (22) pre everything, obviously. My body shape gives me a lot of dysphoria, i have some muscle but big legs and a chest. I bind most days, but I still get she her-ed even by people I’ve come out to (I prefer they or he). What can I do? I can’t go on HRT, parents would not be cool with it. I can’t come out to them, or one of them at least…tips?