37F in the trenches
Slept terribly only to wake up at 5:45am drenched in sweat, slick like a seal. The sheets were soaked and I needed a shower, my opportunity to sleep in on a Sunday, wasted.
I most certainly have a UTI. Seems impossible to get enough water. My skin is extremely dry and wrinkled in new ways. My forehead is covered in pimples like I'm 15. My ear wax smells extra gross. Eyes feel dry and allergies are worse than ever. New black hairs popping up all over my chin, while white squirrelly ones stand out around my face. Sex drive has totally tanked, feels almost like right after I gave birth, unimportant and not ready for it physically. My gum lines are receding on my top and bottom teeth. Body aches and muscle spasms way too often.
I'm consistently exhausted and it's affecting all aspects of my life. Anxiety is out of control despite medication. It is past time to go to the doctor. No more denial.
Yall- I thought I had more time!!! It is what is and you get what you get. Looking forward to taking better care of myself. I'll make it through this phase of life too.
In my Tony Soprano voice "Whada ya gonna do?"