Hey. I’m a guy that came from a family that taught me speaking up is danger. My partner is encouraging me to seek out counselling but my past experience with it was kinda shitty. Anyone got advice on how to not shut down in the sessions?
Hi! Arata here- I’m a broke soon to be uni student working on making a horror game- I love the horror game franchise and fell in love with so many indie horror games series- I’ve tried many times to make games before but they always fell short as I had no clue what to do- i do all the art, everything on my own with no funding (so I’m using free software, public domain audio or self created ect.) this is a big leap from my first attempt on the app in the photo years ago where I made a buggy game where you just drag sprites in a contained space- I’m learning as I go here! And (if allowed I’m still learning this Reddit plateform) might come on here to ask for help if I meet a bug I just don’t get and can’t figure out or ask for advice!
(In the style of fears of fathom)
A ‘fake’ haunted house, with a group of best friends, that turn out to be more real then they thought. Main character has anxiety disorder and panic attacks with a crush that calms her down. You go deeper only to watch your friends get killed, tortured, as your crush slowly looses his mind with denial before becoming the final stand between you- and your last chance at escape the house.
Note: it can use phycology to really sell the insanity and slow descent to madness. With the ‘actors’ of the house being the main threat- some just animatronics of a cart ride like in outlast trials, others the cliché scare actors- so clowns ect- but they are psychopaths and murders under the costume- real nutcases- and lore notes you can find around the place can reveal this place used to be a normal halloweeen attraction till one of the guests turned psycho on the og cast. Killing everyone and hireing who ever gets driven to crazy as the next ‘actor’.
I feel the anxiety disorder on the main character can help lead there dialogue and make sneaking and hiding extra intense as you need to manage the characters anxiety meter to avoid a panic attack while also staying hidden from the threats-
I would build this myself but I am by far not even close to good enough at gas development and I have no time cause of uni- I feel this game would be awsome though and would get picked up by horror YouTubers if marketed right
Put one foot infront of the other.
That’s what I always say when my minds in disorder.
When my breathing hard and sharp
As long as I got a heartbeat I know I’ll last.
The futures unknown. The past Haunting. The present you don’t get to be alive yet.
Just another step.
Your heart beat fasts with adrenaline
Your body screams for a break.
But- one more step.
A flea in a jar
Can never jump that high
A shift in the mind
That will never let you climb-
Again.
When. you loose your mind-
Tug of war you can’t rewind.
You Hold your breath but there’s only air around..
Put Hands to ears but there’s not a sound…
Call it .love.
but if it’s love it’s got that poison-
Make it up long as your falling.
Lived a life of silence
So I’ll scream it now-
Took the cowards way out
Now you can hear me shout!
They say you just gotta start
But damn ain’t that the rule?
Tell me how your ment to move
When your mind become your roots
May have the style but damn don’t got the name.
Might not reach the world but will ease the pain.
Gods may strike me down
But I’ll keep fighting for more days.
Can count the reasons why on my hands
And fuck they sometimes change
Got to grin and bare and try to repair
The damage in my brain.
A child’s cry left to die
Like these memories I erase
How you ment to love yourself
When you support the cause of drain.
Built up some stable starts.-
Got the opportunities laid out bare
so tell me why no matter what I try
Im still gasping for some air.
I Fought for a future-
Fuck I Fought for a life-
I wanna live
Not just survive.
Haven’t I damn well payed the price??
Tell me this ain’t all in vain.
Making this on garage band and my phones notes.
Lying awake in the dark trying hard to cope.
19 minutes to midnight- but not a familiar routine.
My heart sank when my mind a mess
They loved me with there very best
Won’t forget the words the asked so calm.
Forgetting I’m the damaged one.
That feeling when your parents look-
You in the eyes before they ask
‘Where we good parents’
And you painfully say yes..
Got to face this pain with a heavy heart
Nobody cares when you fall apart
A spiral I can barely hold
But I don’t let it take control.
My mind’s a mess of muffled thoughts
I can’t scream I’ve had enough
A vice is like a lovers touch
It grabs my neck and plays it rough
I know I’m risking all I’ve done
Those 4 words make me feel so dumb
How are you ment to tell a man
His wife does more than be a friend.
How you ment to tell at them
When in the end they loved me-
But fuck that love caused me to bleed
They tried there best I’ll give them that
But they missed all the signs that stabbed my back.
They lost the love they thought they saw.
Never told the horrors behind closed doors.
Wish things weren’t so blind-
How could you not see your child.
How could you not hear the screams
How could nobody came for me.
How can you say your proud
Then turn around and drown me out.
I see the reason why you choose
But fuck I need time away from you
Your like a drug inside my head
You’re gonna make me end up dead!
Even now I’m suffering
And the fear is bubbling
How do you tell someone.
You hate them but you love them some.
and you know what hurts worst?
Love built of guilt is not love at all.
.It’s a fucking curse.
A flea in a jar
Can never jump that high
A shift in the mind
That will never let you climb-
Again.
When. you loose your mind-
Tug of war you can’t rewind.
You Hold your breath but there’s only air around..
Put Hands to ears but there’s not a sound…
Call it .love.
but if it’s love it’s got that poison-
Make it up long as your falling.
Lived a life of silence
So I’ll scream it now-
Took the cowards way out
Now you can hear me shout!
They say you just gotta start
But damn ain’t that the rule?
Tell me how your ment to move
When your mind become your roots
May have the style but damn don’t got the name.
Might not reach the world but will ease the pain.
Gods may strike me down
But I’ll keep fighting for more days.
Can count the reasons why on my hands
And fuck they sometimes change
Got to grin and bare and try to repair
The damage in my brain.
A child’s cry left to die
Like these memories I erase
How you ment to love yourself
When you support the cause of drain.
Built up some stable starts.-
Got the opportunities laid out bare
so tell me why no matter what I try
Im still gasping for some air.
I Fought for a future-
Fuck I Fought for a life-
I wanna live
Not just survive.
Haven’t I damn well payed the price??
Tell me this ain’t all in vain.
Making this on garage band and my phones notes.
Lying awake in the dark trying hard to cope.
19 minutes to midnight- but not a familiar routine.
My heart sank when my mind a mess
They loved me with there very best
Won’t forget the words the asked so calm.
Forgetting I’m the damaged one.
That feeling when your parents look-
You in the eyes before they ask
‘Where we good parents’
And you painfully say yes..
Got to face this pain with a heavy heart
Nobody cares when you fall apart
A spiral I can barely hold
But I don’t let it take control.
My mind’s a mess of muffled thoughts
I can’t scream I’ve had enough
A vice is like a lovers touch
It grabs my neck and plays it rough
I know I’m risking all I’ve done
Those 4 words make me feel so dumb
How are you ment to tell a man
His wife does more than be a friend.
How you ment to tell at them
When in the end they loved me-
But fuck that love caused me to bleed
They tried there best I’ll give them that
But they missed all the signs that stabbed my back.
They lost the love they thought they saw.
Never told the horrors behind closed doors.
Wish things weren’t so blind-
How could you not see your child.
How could you not hear the screams
How could nobody came for me.
How can you say your proud
Then turn around and drown me out.
I see the reason why you choose
But fuck I need time away from you
Your like a drug inside my head
You’re gonna make me end up dead!
Even now I’m suffering
And the fear is bubbling
How do you tell someone.
You hate them but you love them some.
and you know what hurts worst?
Love built of guilt is not love at all.
.It’s a fucking curse.