I've always been a hypersexual person ever since i was a child.
I accidentally discovered porn when i was 7 but i never really had any access to it until i was about like 12 when i first learned how to access and consume it and then i just keep watching and watching it over and over again. I couldn't stop because i was pretty young and my brain is still developing. I'm 16 now and im trying to manage and control my urges but i just keep falling and falling like i would be clean for a few days and then fall for it again and its been like this for months now. People say that i should go out with friends and do fun activities together when all my friends and every single person in my town would just bully me over and over again. I have a pretty tough situation too like we're poor and our opportunities are basically limited and ofc me being the oldest son i have this somewhat of a responsibility to take care of my mom and my younger sister because my dad is in a different place because of work and there he's also struggling with finance. I wanna go out and explore the world and try to find meaning and hopefully stop my porn addiction, but i have this "responsibility" on my shoulder that i should look out for my mom and my sister and that i should be "the man" of the house robbing my teenage years. So yeah, I used porn as a "relief" even tho it's an absolute bad way of relaxing myself. I also have this feeling of ioche where i never felr comfortable in my own skin and its been like that since i was 10 years old. Im a human too, i just want people to acknowledge my addiction. Help me overcome this