u/Artistic_Shallot_610

I’m a dance teacher and recently quit my corporate job. I want to incorporate somatic healing in my own dance practice and be able to teach my students about it. Honestly, this will sound dramatic but dance saved my life. And I don’t think it needs to be that serious for others, but I feel so fulfilled when teaching embodied movement, especially to folks who didn’t grow up dancing. Can anyone recommend legit programs for learning more about somatic therapy and healing?

We never officially said we’d go NC, but we didn’t end on good terms. Yesterday out of nowhere he texted at 5am, casually asking how I am. I didn’t respond for 14 hours cuz I was deciding whether I even want to. I ended up asking if everything is ok with him. He then responded 15 hours later nonchalantly “everything is fine, why do you ask?” Instead of driving myself insane with the painful who can take longer to reply game, I wished him and his family well and said I would appreciate if he didn’t reach out again. I know NC is what I need, and it’s literally what I just asked of him, but I am in so much pain all over again, hoping for a reply/genuine apology from him that I know I won’t get. Can anyone tell me if I’m f*cked and back at square one? A couple nights before he texted, I cried myself to sleep about it all and the next day I felt some progress like okay it’s really time to pick up the pieces and pull myself together. Now I’m worried any healing progress is out the window because I replied and now am secretly hoping for one more response from him. Whyyyy do I want a response when I know he won’t give me the one I need. Why do I want the opposite of what I asked him, which is to not reach out again? I’m just trying to understand these feelings so I can actually work through them. Be kind please.

TLDR: replied to him breaking our unofficial NC, am I back at square one in terms of healing?