u/Artistic_Vehicle_934

Up until last December, I used to have a strong crush on a friend [22M], but then those feelings went away completely and I started dating my BF [21M].

In mid-April, my BF and I went to a party together where my old crush and some of his friends were also there. I got really drunk that night and don't remember parts of the night. I later found out from my BF that I spent way more time talking to my old crush than I did with him, which made him upset and speculate that I still liked my old crush.

But I don't think that's it. Even now, in a sober state, I don't feel romantically towards my old crush at all. If given a choice between my BF and my old crush, I'd choose my BF every time.

So I've been wondering why I still technically chose my old crush over my BF that night. After a lot of introspection and reflection, my best explanation is nostalgia. Back when I liked my old crush, we would go out to bars and parties with his friends a lot, so l was thinking that being back in that similar environment kind of activated that old social dynamic for that one night.

I'm curious to know how others would interpret my situation, especially anyone who could remotely relate. I'm also wondering if the nostalgia explanation is bad, in ethical terms.

TL;DR: I no longer have feelings for my old crush, but while drunk at a party with him and my BF present, I spent more time talking to the old crush. I’m trying to figure out how to interpret my behavior.