u/ArugulaFinancial4859

Almost 3 years of long streaks and now I completely see through the vanity and bullshit of going to the gym 5 days a week to get big muscles

Why do you want big muscles?

This society and YouTube is fucking obsessed with getting a killer physique but for what reason exactly? Why?

Do you know that it's not even healthy to eat around 4+ Meals a day... All for what? So you can feel sluggish and slow cos you're digesting dead animals and excess calories in order to LOOK like you're hard and tough... When weightlifting has fuck all to do with your fighting ability

And then we have the steroids... The fucking steroids. Why do so many of you men take steroids? Because you're low testosterone, why are you low testosterone? Cos you have a cooming problem lets be completely honest and open

You're a coomer, you don't preserve your semen, you're going bald, you're in a low vibration, you're physically weak, you lack vitality

So you resort to injecting yourself with an artificial substance in order for your body to create more testosterone so what? You can build more unnatural sized muscles? So you can be fucking bald but with big muscles and a shrunken genitalia?

Do you see how unnatural weird and fucked up this entire situation is?

Retain your fucking semen and be a real man cos this shit just looks weird from an outside perspective

You are severely steeped in the delusion and the matrix

I'm 32 and injured. Been thinking, if you could take one art and train it for the rest of your life, what would it be and why?

Here's my thoughts and feelings, let me know if you agree

Boxing

+ Amazing fitness, balance, incredible for self defense and confidence

- potential long term brain health issues

Muay Thai

+ Great fitness & self defence techniques

- joint, flexibility issues as aging occurs, generally the art doesn't age well on someone

BJJ

+ Fantastic for cognitive health, making friends, achievement, strength, grappling techniques

- expensive, very hard on the body, alot of its useless for self defense

What do YOU think about martial arts, which is the greatest to choose for the rest of your life?

You've met them, you know them. They rub one out most mornings before they get out of bed and see nothing wrong with it, they proclaim it to people... And look at the state of their energy

They aren't intelligent, they can't sit down and speak to a camera for 10 minutes straight about their deep thoughts and theories cos they don't have any

They get angry and jealous of you for developing into a fucking genius. What you deal with inside your mind on a daily basis if they took your mind and wore it like a headset, it would stifle and overwhelm them. You're 4K, they're 720p

If their girlfriends don't have sex with them they go and rub one out. Totally controlled by the orgasm... And look at the state of them visually, pale and pasty. They look ghoulish and stale

They have all these big plans, all these egoistic pursuits of success and grandiose superficial achievements. That's what their whole life is about and yet... They won't do the one thing that will serve as a fuel for them to achieve these things. They will not retain their fluid & energy

I'm starting to think that some of these guys are fucking retards. They're blown away by how you think and speak and yet they rub one out like everyday

Get a fucking life

I used to evangelise to them about SR and get laughed at but then I realised... I figured out this shit myself due to experience so why can't they? Why can't they figure out that fapping is KILLING them?

So I stopped evangelising SR to these annoying dense fools. Let them ejaculate their fucking lives away seen as it's so important to them

Isn't it a good feeling when you finally realise you're out the DEFICIT that most men are in

I released after a 121 day streak and went and worked a security shift in a local town centre where I was stood around for 12 hours whilst a commercial filming shoot was taking place

Despite my release the day before my ability to read energy was almost sickening

I was expecting to be a drained corpse of a man given i'd had 2 small releases the day before and indeed I did feel like shit when I first got to the location at 7 in the morning

But holy shit

As the day progressed, I saw hundreds of people throughout the day and dealt with and spoke to literally dozens and I could read so much energy

Let me tell you, the amount of drained human beings specifically men who are in this society is tremendous and the hilarious thing was that after my releases every interaction almost I had that day was so painfully awkward that I just laughed at the whole thing and criticised it

I was playing the role of the bottom of the pecking order as a security guard and I was reading the hierarchal superiority if so many people who I was around and I found it astonishingly pathetic

At one point, some big dog in a suit appeared on set and attempted to energetically assert his dominance over me by asking me a confusing question that I was supposed to go along with but due to my tendency to think too deeply about simple statements I didn't give him the verbal response he was looking for, I felt some energetic animosity from him when he corrected me which was undeniable, transparent and ultimately pathetic

Some dude who was rude to me took off his sunglasses and he looked like a fucking demon to tell you the truth. A drained, nasty being... I couldn't help but just find it amusing

I had some other security guard who was just staring at me with this malicious poise that's hard to describe but I felt it

I just couldn't help but think what the fuck, I literally have just released twice yesterday and I'm picking up all this crazy weird energy from people

I was absolutely sickened by this entire day

I was surrounded by absolute idiots & malicious nasty humans

Some people were very nice to me though, those people I commend and appreciate and reciprocate

I have now realised at almost 3 years of long SR streaks that I'm out the DEFICIT that this society is collectively in

Bless

Everyone talks about how vile & unliveable racist positions and opinions are and yet people slag off white people all the time and make derogatory comments and remarks about white people for being white

I just think all racism is horrible but apparently alot of people of the "woke" left think the same unless it's white people they're talking about

You do realise that people can't help their skin colour? You do realise that assessing and diminishing someone for the colour of their skin or the race they belong to is racism?

This is why no one takes woke people seriously. You say discrimination is wrong yet you discriminate. At the same time you call people of colour disadvantaged just going off their skin colour and yet if you were to compare a white person living in abject poverty with horrific circumstances on top of that to Barack Obama... Who's got the privilege? Obama... But you racist morons can't comprehend that situation can you?

Just face it, you hold a racial hatred towards white people for some mysterious unknown reason even though most of you are white... That's an occurrence you might wanna think deeply about

Ask yourself why am I a racist?

I've been on SR streaks for almost 3 years. Numerous 100+ day streaks but I've started to realise the energy builds up quicker now on streaks to the point where 90 days can feel pretty fucking uncomfortable with numerous spiritual & psychological benefits that are just abit wild and intense to deal with

I think that all the streaks I've done the last 3 years may have compounded, is this possible in your experience? I feel pretty wild and crazy thesedays especially when a streak goes past 80+ days

I just ended a 121 day streak because I felt like I was going quite wild. I fought against it quite hard, I was feeling this way for a good month. My streak before this one was 188 days. It hasn't been perfect at all, I've had my issues but I got the streaks under my belt. I've been on SR streaks about 3 years now

This streak was just getting too much for me. I was feeling super intelligent which I fucking loved, that was the best thing about it. I felt I was cultivating some sort of genius level intellect, I was thinking like a philosopher - I still am, I haven't lost the perspectives or attitudes towards approaching thinking

I realised that everything I believe is a paradox and that's ok... You can still believe in truths that are paradoxical and contradictory but most people are unable to see this because they don't think this way... I began asking why, why, why, about everything. Why do I believe *this* ... Because of this, why do I believe *that*... Felt like I was becoming a philosopher or something

I felt way too fucking deep for most average idiots that I'm forced to work with. I felt insane around most people. My mind was pretty powerful but everything else was wobbly. My caffeine addiction was impulsive and out of control, the gym didn't calm me down. I was getting fits of anger and rage. I felt like I could read people's minds or energy making them predictable making me resent them for their stupidity and the way they can't understand me or respect me for my authenticity which I've experienced my entire life

I can't engage or pay attention to ANY politics or things that are going on right now politically cos it literally *feels* so fucking evil and it is

It's hard to describe how I've felt but I've just felt slightly *mad* for lack of a better description

It's all ended up in me edging which I believe is the sexual addiction trying to express itself and then I've made the decision to release. Right after releasing I felt a releasing of some pressure and I feel alot calmer now. That's the 2nd time I've released in 10 months.

The journey continues, all I'm saying is guys sometimes this practice can make you feel abit wild. I don't know how I'm going to approach this next streak but I may have to release say every 100 or so days just to keep a lid on that wild energy. I've been aiming to get a year under my belt but it's just hard for me with the energy it feels

One thing that really helps me is earthing, nature and meditation. The gym doesn't help, the energy is too much, even often for the things I've listed