u/Arunwrites1110

I am in love with a girl for last 10 months..we are started to getting known as colleagues..

I proposed to her 11 October 2025 after that she shows some mixed signals about her decision.. sometimes she tells it didn't work out..after that she came and tell ..I am having a fear about the love..already she got a breakup 2 years ago..

I known all the past and after that the love bloom i proposed to her..and I did all the lover kind of thing before getting into commited..

And also she been a well wisher and showed so much of care and her character was she can speak straightforward but the tone and language maybe hurt the people.

But when she get hurts some thing ..she goes silent and i have to beg ..tell me what happened..what happened..and she simply reply ..nothing nothing..after the sometimes only she confess..

And we been in a situationship for 6 months after the proposal..on Apr 22 2026 she confessed her love ..and we done a intimacy things..

Everything goes well ..but her true character some times hurt me as well..like tone and words..and i confessed openly these things..

On June 6th 2026 I got a disease of pulmonary vasculties and admitted on hospital for 1 month..in those time she gave the more reassurance and told i am in with you and got so much attached with family..

I don't know what kind of deed i did in past..i am in good state now in medications.and both of our family knows about our love..

And i made sure to her ..I will stay forever..you believed me and I staying for that..our love gets more stronger than before ..

And i doing all kind of husband things to her ..not yet married btw..but she needs that treatment..ofc I am providing doing my best..

One misunderstanding like ..she again shows her character of tone and words..and i said whatever the things we can solve with mutual confession..and she said I don't want to explain anything..you can take that words however you wish..

And it hurted me more..and I went silent for 2 days without speaking to her..and after that she came and emotionally manipulated with tears and words..

And we patched up again..again love -intimacy- any small problem - hurt..I stucked in this loop ..really exhausted

And i openly confessed with her any kind of problem have to solve with words .and mutual respect...that kind of love i longing..

She said I will correct all those things..and i repeatedly asking about the validition of love..and standards of love..

She said I accept those things...we will take care..

But when sometimes..that loop created i am getting fear of the loop..

And i said to her this loop can create again and again..tell me what will do..

She said I am also in fear of loop..of i openup anything it will create any problem like that by words..that's why i don't share anything openly..

She said if there is any fight situation got like avoiding is better than solving..

And she said and will be sorted..in chat..I don't know what's going to happen from here..

Sorry for my English..

I am also getting fear for if this will happen repeatedly how can life will go...both are live by fear for lifelong..

And i think within 1year we will get married...

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I'm new to Reddit and have heard from a friend that it's a great place to share constructive ideas, gain knowledge, and learn from people with experience in different fields.

Recently, I had the idea of writing and publishing a book on Amazon Kindle, but I'm not sure if it's the right path or whether it will work.

I already have the core story in mind. However, it's not fully structured yet—it's mostly a collection of ideas, scenes, and key moments. I'm looking for advice on how to organize those ideas into a complete novel and what steps I should follow to move forward.

I've also set myself a goal: I want to publish Chapter 1 by August 31.

I'd really appreciate any advice, writing tips, or suggestions from authors who have gone through this process. What would you do if you were starting from scratch?